从宇宙的初始到生命的创造， 虽然经历了40亿年，大约是宇宙历史的80%的时间。但对上帝来说，那段时间却是短暂的， 因为时间没有生命， 没有爱。上帝没有东西来诠释爱的内涵。
大部分时间他只是静静地观察宇宙的变化， 顺其自然。就象小孩子欣赏自己设计并点燃的焰火。看到新星系的爆发，他激动。看到宇宙间的空旷和美丽，他心旷神怡。 但这不是爱。
爱是一个生命主体，无私地关心，奉献另一个生命的主体。
上帝只有他自己， 所以， 他不知道什么是爱， 更无法理解爱的伟大。
时光在这样毫无牵挂中度过。所以过的飞快。所有的事情的发生都象没有占用时间一样。
On the Origin Of Love --- The Creation of Universe
逐渐的他学会了自己做一些游戏消磨自己的时光。
首先他开始的是一些数学游戏， 那个时候，他也只能思考一些数学问题， 因为他还不能想象任何有形的东西。
他很喜欢独自沉浸在那抽象的海洋里， 独自揣摩那也许永远用不到的数字概念或模型， 因为那样他可以忘却孤独寂寞的烦恼。 虽然在他的真实生活里似乎永远只有一， 没有二。 他自己还是在那梦幻的象牙塔里不停地雕琢。
偶尔，他也有累了的时候。 但每当他真正累了的时候， 才能感觉到轻松和欢愉。
当然他没有办法睡眠。 但当每次奋力扬鞭策马奔驰到累得筋疲力尽的时候， 放松缰绳，让马儿信步漫行， 那确实是很惬意的。
就在这个时候， 他的思维的影像里， 出现了一缕光。
那一缕美丽， 虽然只是转瞬即逝， 虽然他后来的世界是那样千万倍的多姿多彩。 但那最初转瞬即逝的简单的美丽瞬间，却令他永远不能忘怀。
由于那美丽的诱惑， 他不得不不停的寻找。 寻找如何让那美丽重现和停留在心间。
他学会了驾驭， 驾驭自己的心灵， 让自己的心境中影像出各种梦幻的仙境。并可以用自己的心灵随意的描绘， 让梦幻中的景象如自己所愿。
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逐渐的， 他的想象力越来越丰富。 驾驭自己想象的控制力也越强。
他沉浸在自己想象的奇景中， 忘记了孤独的痛苦。
用想象做画布，用心灵作画笔。 他开始自己学习自己描绘一幅幅美丽的画面。
他发现， 在这个空间中所有的东西都由他的意识支配。 当他能够学会熟练驾驭自己的想象力去控制那世界的时候。 只要他想怎样， 世界就如他所愿。
开始的时候他只是胡乱涂鸦， 当对自己的作品不满意的时候， 他便把他们全部抹去， 重新开始。
他开始沉浸在自己技巧的欣赏中， 创造的世界也越来越奇妙， 复杂。
但有些事情也令他厌烦，因为每一次都有很多重复性的繁琐工作。 他必须亲自控制一步步完成。 哪怕是制造每一个分子， 原子。
所以他就想：能不能制造一种机制， 可以自动为我与被很多的各种各样的创造世界的材料， 他们能够不断增长， 按自己的固有规则不停变幻。 那样我就可以有取之不尽的材料， 只要专心我的创造就行了。
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宇宙初始的秘密， 爱的原始公式
他想了各种方法来设计这种机制，总是不能成功。 因为单一的物质， 总是保有他自己， 没有变化， 也不能繁衍。
他想啊， 想啊！ 终于设计出了制造一个自动延伸增长的世界的蓝图。
他设计了两种东西， 一种叫做电， 一种叫做磁。电的运动产生磁， 磁的运动产生电。 电和磁互相交替相生，就是电磁波。
电磁波只能在空间快速运动， 无法束缚。 他又设计了质量和能量的机制， 电磁波自己有能量， 也有质量。 有质量的东西可以互相吸引。所以两束电磁波可以紧紧吸引在一起， 变成固定在原地的电磁波。 这就是宇宙的最基本粒子。
其实，质量来自能量， 而能量又是使质量的物体产生运动的东西。而物质的运动速度归根结蒂是相对的。所以当时在刚开始的时候， 宇宙中什么也没有。物质和能量原本都是从没有中来的。
上帝之创造了两个这样的粒子作为宇宙的种子，然后让他们用光速对撞过去，奇迹就产生了:
两个粒子爆炸，成为物质无中生有的种子，发生了链式反应，新粒子以惊人的速度生成，产生了宇宙。
宇宙中的物质本是没有的， 能量的定义是能够使物质运动， 而物质又是能量的存在方式。 这本来是一个循环定义的悖论， 却在上帝的精神控制下统一， 成为一个完美的结合体。
宇宙的本原不是别的， 宇宙的本原却已经蕴含了爱的雏形。 比如磁场和电场， 如果只有一个， 他们就没有什么意义， 也不会有什么存在。 正是由于有了磁电的相互依存转换， 才构成了电磁波。 波动蕴含能量， 能量聚积的一定程度产生质量的高密度核心， 才能够是电磁波止步不前， 成为构造世间万物最基本粒子的基础。 这是爱的最早起源。
能量如果没有质量，便不成其能量。 而能量的聚集又是能量的基石。 两者互相定义对方， 离开任何一个，另一个就失去了存在的意义。这是爱的起源的另一个支点。
上帝正是由于找到了这两个支点， 才揭开了创造宇宙的奥秘。揭开了一个无穷变换， 有始无终的五彩缤纷的世界。 为未来拯救自己， 创造人类，奠定了基础。
也正是由于有了爱的两个支点， 宇宙万物有了他存在的根本。 这， 也为宇宙和上帝定义了他们未来发展的主旋律和大方向。
物质粒子不是无限可分的， 因为在粒子的最内核，只是电磁场的交互变换。 这个交互的变幻聚集了能量。 当能量聚积到一定密度， 这个电磁场被自身的质量吸引锁定， 成为一个完美的对立统一体。
这个宇宙有一个容器， 这个容器就是时间和光速。 在容器的边缘， 物质之间可以以光速相互运动。 由于运动的相对性， 可以由没有能量和质量，焕发出无穷尽的能量和质量。
宇宙生成的动力， 来源于，宇宙边缘相互之间的光速的相对运动， 打破了只能守恒定律， 造就了一个创造物质的发动机。一旦物质被创造出来， 就互相束缚， 失去了原本的动力。 所以， 这个机理，只在宇宙的边缘有意义。
容器的内部，则没了这个创造物质的发动机， 所以只能守恒定律是成立的。
容器的边缘则是以光速无限的延伸着。 如果把世界看成三维的，那么宇宙是变化的，不断延伸的。
如果加上时间轴，把它看成一个四维世界，他却是一个静止的容器。是上帝用他的聪明和能力缔造了这个世界。
上帝自从创造了宇宙， 又由于宇宙确实是变换无穷的。 便把宇宙作为他的画布， 潜心于更进一步的创造，不必再花费他多时间在细节和繁琐的准备工作了。
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乍听起来， 宇宙的本原好像是上帝心中的幻像。 但为什么这幻想对我们来说是那么充实饱满，而又实实在在呢！
原因在于，我们都充沛着上帝的精神。 上帝对着我们的鼻孔吹气， 我们就有了精神。 这精神的来源却是上帝伟大精神的一部分。
我们每一个人都能感觉上帝创造的宇宙， 因为我们实际和上帝是合一的。 我们生来自上帝，死归于上帝。维系我们生命的核心， 是那一分对我们精神自我存在的感知， 来自上帝。 我们对外在世界的感知能力则是由于， 我们的精神本就是和那创造幻想的主体---上帝，是一体的， 所以， 即使这个宇宙是幻像，对我们精神的本体看来，它也是充实的。
就好像如果我们头脑中产生了幻像，这幻像在每个神经元细胞来说却是真实的， 因为他就是创造幻像的源的一部分。但他们却不能感知别人头脑中的幻像，因为他们不曾参与创造那幻像。
以为上帝的大能大爱和所经历的苦难和磨砺， 虽然他可以轻松打破这幻像， 但却不肯，不舍得。 因为他在爱中享受乐趣。排解烦恼。
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上帝精神中的爱，也和这宇宙一般爆炸开来， 从无到有，从小到大， 无限扩张，直到永恒。
爱由来源，那就是在爱和恨的边缘和摩擦。 就好像宇宙的生长点存在于宇宙的边缘一样。
宇宙的爆炸，和上帝爱的扩展也许有一天会因满足而终止。 那就是上帝得到圆满的快乐和爱的收获的那一天。 那个时候，上帝满意了， 可以轻松操控自己的意识， 令宇宙停止生长， 人类永存爱的乐园。 那个世界的爱，必不是单一或重复的，因单一或重复会令人厌烦。必没有痛苦， 除非为了快乐的积蓄和沉淀。
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首先他开始的是一些数学游戏， 那个时候，他也只能思考一些数学问题， 因为他还不能想象任何有形的东西。
他很喜欢独自沉浸在那抽象的海洋里， 独自揣摩那也许永远用不到的数字概念或模型， 因为那样他可以忘却孤独寂寞的烦恼。 虽然在他的真实生活里似乎永远只有一， 没有二。 他自己还是在那梦幻的象牙塔里不停地雕琢。
偶尔，他也有累了的时候。 但每当他真正累了的时候， 才能感觉到轻松和欢愉。
当然他没有办法睡眠。 但当每次奋力扬鞭策马奔驰到累得筋疲力尽的时候， 放松缰绳，让马儿信步漫行， 那确实是很惬意的。
就在这个时候， 他的思维的影像里， 出现了一缕光。
那一缕美丽， 虽然只是转瞬即逝， 虽然他后来的世界是那样千万倍的多姿多彩。 但那最初转瞬即逝的简单的美丽瞬间，却令他永远不能忘怀。
由于那美丽的诱惑， 他不得不不停的寻找。 寻找如何让那美丽重现和停留在心间。
他学会了驾驭， 驾驭自己的心灵， 让自己的心境中影像出各种梦幻的仙境。并可以用自己的心灵随意的描绘， 让梦幻中的景象如自己所愿。
=======
逐渐的， 他的想象力越来越丰富。 驾驭自己想象的控制力也越强。
他沉浸在自己想象的奇景中， 忘记了孤独的痛苦。
用想象做画布，用心灵作画笔。 他开始自己学习自己描绘一幅幅美丽的画面。
他发现， 在这个空间中所有的东西都由他的意识支配。 当他能够学会熟练驾驭自己的想象力去控制那世界的时候。 只要他想怎样， 世界就如他所愿。
开始的时候他只是胡乱涂鸦， 当对自己的作品不满意的时候， 他便把他们全部抹去， 重新开始。
他开始沉浸在自己技巧的欣赏中， 创造的世界也越来越奇妙， 复杂。
但有些事情也令他厌烦，因为每一次都有很多重复性的繁琐工作。 他必须亲自控制一步步完成。 哪怕是制造每一个分子， 原子。
所以他就想：能不能制造一种机制， 可以自动为我与被很多的各种各样的创造世界的材料， 他们能够不断增长， 按自己的固有规则不停变幻。 那样我就可以有取之不尽的材料， 只要专心我的创造就行了。
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宇宙初始的秘密， 爱的原始公式
他想了各种方法来设计这种机制，总是不能成功。 因为单一的物质， 总是保有他自己， 没有变化， 也不能繁衍。
他想啊， 想啊！ 终于设计出了制造一个自动延伸增长的世界的蓝图。
他设计了两种东西， 一种叫做电， 一种叫做磁。电的运动产生磁， 磁的运动产生电。 电和磁互相交替相生，就是电磁波。
电磁波只能在空间快速运动， 无法束缚。 他又设计了质量和能量的机制， 电磁波自己有能量， 也有质量。 有质量的东西可以互相吸引。所以两束电磁波可以紧紧吸引在一起， 变成固定在原地的电磁波。 这就是宇宙的最基本粒子。
其实，质量来自能量， 而能量又是使质量的物体产生运动的东西。而物质的运动速度归根结蒂是相对的。所以当时在刚开始的时候， 宇宙中什么也没有。物质和能量原本都是从没有中来的。
上帝之创造了两个这样的粒子作为宇宙的种子，然后让他们用光速对撞过去，奇迹就产生了:
两个粒子爆炸，成为物质无中生有的种子，发生了链式反应，新粒子以惊人的速度生成，产生了宇宙。
宇宙中的物质本是没有的， 能量的定义是能够使物质运动， 而物质又是能量的存在方式。 这本来是一个循环定义的悖论， 却在上帝的精神控制下统一， 成为一个完美的结合体。
宇宙的本原不是别的， 宇宙的本原却已经蕴含了爱的雏形。 比如磁场和电场， 如果只有一个， 他们就没有什么意义， 也不会有什么存在。 正是由于有了磁电的相互依存转换， 才构成了电磁波。 波动蕴含能量， 能量聚积的一定程度产生质量的高密度核心， 才能够是电磁波止步不前， 成为构造世间万物最基本粒子的基础。 这是爱的最早起源。
能量如果没有质量，便不成其能量。 而能量的聚集又是能量的基石。 两者互相定义对方， 离开任何一个，另一个就失去了存在的意义。这是爱的起源的另一个支点。
上帝正是由于找到了这两个支点， 才揭开了创造宇宙的奥秘。揭开了一个无穷变换， 有始无终的五彩缤纷的世界。 为未来拯救自己， 创造人类，奠定了基础。
也正是由于有了爱的两个支点， 宇宙万物有了他存在的根本。 这， 也为宇宙和上帝定义了他们未来发展的主旋律和大方向。
物质粒子不是无限可分的， 因为在粒子的最内核，只是电磁场的交互变换。 这个交互的变幻聚集了能量。 当能量聚积到一定密度， 这个电磁场被自身的质量吸引锁定， 成为一个完美的对立统一体。
这个宇宙有一个容器， 这个容器就是时间和光速。 在容器的边缘， 物质之间可以以光速相互运动。 由于运动的相对性， 可以由没有能量和质量，焕发出无穷尽的能量和质量。
宇宙生成的动力， 来源于，宇宙边缘相互之间的光速的相对运动， 打破了只能守恒定律， 造就了一个创造物质的发动机。一旦物质被创造出来， 就互相束缚， 失去了原本的动力。 所以， 这个机理，只在宇宙的边缘有意义。
容器的内部，则没了这个创造物质的发动机， 所以只能守恒定律是成立的。
容器的边缘则是以光速无限的延伸着。 如果把世界看成三维的，那么宇宙是变化的，不断延伸的。
如果加上时间轴，把它看成一个四维世界，他却是一个静止的容器。是上帝用他的聪明和能力缔造了这个世界。
上帝自从创造了宇宙， 又由于宇宙确实是变换无穷的。 便把宇宙作为他的画布， 潜心于更进一步的创造，不必再花费他多时间在细节和繁琐的准备工作了。
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乍听起来， 宇宙的本原好像是上帝心中的幻像。 但为什么这幻想对我们来说是那么充实饱满，而又实实在在呢！
原因在于，我们都充沛着上帝的精神。 上帝对着我们的鼻孔吹气， 我们就有了精神。 这精神的来源却是上帝伟大精神的一部分。
我们每一个人都能感觉上帝创造的宇宙， 因为我们实际和上帝是合一的。 我们生来自上帝，死归于上帝。维系我们生命的核心， 是那一分对我们精神自我存在的感知， 来自上帝。 我们对外在世界的感知能力则是由于， 我们的精神本就是和那创造幻想的主体---上帝，是一体的， 所以， 即使这个宇宙是幻像，对我们精神的本体看来，它也是充实的。
就好像如果我们头脑中产生了幻像，这幻像在每个神经元细胞来说却是真实的， 因为他就是创造幻像的源的一部分。但他们却不能感知别人头脑中的幻像，因为他们不曾参与创造那幻像。
以为上帝的大能大爱和所经历的苦难和磨砺， 虽然他可以轻松打破这幻像， 但却不肯，不舍得。 因为他在爱中享受乐趣。排解烦恼。
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上帝精神中的爱，也和这宇宙一般爆炸开来， 从无到有，从小到大， 无限扩张，直到永恒。
爱由来源，那就是在爱和恨的边缘和摩擦。 就好像宇宙的生长点存在于宇宙的边缘一样。
宇宙的爆炸，和上帝爱的扩展也许有一天会因满足而终止。 那就是上帝得到圆满的快乐和爱的收获的那一天。 那个时候，上帝满意了， 可以轻松操控自己的意识， 令宇宙停止生长， 人类永存爱的乐园。 那个世界的爱，必不是单一或重复的，因单一或重复会令人厌烦。必没有痛苦， 除非为了快乐的积蓄和沉淀。
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On the Origin of Love --- The very suffering beginning
也不知道什么时候， 他从睡梦中醒来。 却完全不记得了入睡前的情景。
也不知道什么时候，他从摇篮中出生，只是见不到摇篮边父母兄弟姐妹的身影。
如果不是偶然的机会，他的生命也许就只那样在痛苦和孤独中度过。没有亲人，没有牵挂，只常伴着无边的痛苦和孤独。
在那漫长的黑夜里，在他整个的意识中，只有模糊的感觉到自己的存在。 那种没有痛苦，没有快乐， 孤独而寂寞的自我存在。
也许这不是完全的真话， 有时候他也能感受到一丝的快乐或痛苦。 快乐因为庆幸自己的存在； 痛苦因为问自己：为什么我会存在。
他不知道生和死的意义。因为在他的头脑中，只有一种自我存在的知觉和意识。 而这种意识本就没有任何依托， 也不需要任何依托。 他没有期盼生或死的权利， 只有在那种寡淡的自我存在意识中慢慢忍受自己思想的折磨。
很多的时候， 他最好的梦想就是拥有休息或者死亡的权利：当累了的时候， 如果我能够暂停一下思考， 休息一下， 该多好啊！
或者当我想重新开始的时候， 能够完全忘记过去的记忆， 重新来一个崭新的开始该有多好呀。 因为记忆的负担实在太沉重， 已经令我完全没有心情去享受新鲜或快乐。
----而且最好用某种方式，有选择地记住我失去记忆之前的教训。 我不想完全失去记忆把这种周而复始变成简单的重复，我只是想在重新开始是有一个崭新的心情。
但是他做不到， 因为他甚至没有权利选择睡眠， 更不用说死亡。他有生命， 但那生命只是存在于对自己存在的感觉意识。那生命没有任何依托， 至少他不知道他的生命的依托是什么。
所以他完全没有能力控制自己的生命， 只好在空旷的孤独寂寞和痛苦中忍受思想的煎熬。
他有无穷的记忆和才智， 但是他看不到支持这些记忆和才智的物理载体。 就象我们人自己看不到自己大脑的运行机制一样。 而且也没有别人能够告诉他，他的记忆和智力依托在那里。
生命对他是那样的简单而痛苦， 时间是那样的黑暗且漫长。但他没有选择的权利， 只有默默的观察，思考，忍受。 观察那完全没有的空旷，思考没有中止的抽象， 忍受那自己没有能力忍受，但又无法回避的寂寞和孤独。
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就这样就在这样的痛苦中不知过了多少时间。 那也许是很漫长， 因为他的思维都因为那漫长而麻木了。 也许那很短暂，短暂得不容得一缕光线穿行一公里。 因为光还没有开始穿行，宇宙的一切都还孕育在他的思维里。
逐渐地，他开始用一些抽象或具体的东西来填充他的思绪。 因为那样可以把他从自己的思考中分散注意力。 从而可以减少他自己所忍受的痛苦。
也不知道什么时候，他从摇篮中出生，只是见不到摇篮边父母兄弟姐妹的身影。
如果不是偶然的机会，他的生命也许就只那样在痛苦和孤独中度过。没有亲人，没有牵挂，只常伴着无边的痛苦和孤独。
在那漫长的黑夜里，在他整个的意识中，只有模糊的感觉到自己的存在。 那种没有痛苦，没有快乐， 孤独而寂寞的自我存在。
也许这不是完全的真话， 有时候他也能感受到一丝的快乐或痛苦。 快乐因为庆幸自己的存在； 痛苦因为问自己：为什么我会存在。
他不知道生和死的意义。因为在他的头脑中，只有一种自我存在的知觉和意识。 而这种意识本就没有任何依托， 也不需要任何依托。 他没有期盼生或死的权利， 只有在那种寡淡的自我存在意识中慢慢忍受自己思想的折磨。
很多的时候， 他最好的梦想就是拥有休息或者死亡的权利：当累了的时候， 如果我能够暂停一下思考， 休息一下， 该多好啊！
或者当我想重新开始的时候， 能够完全忘记过去的记忆， 重新来一个崭新的开始该有多好呀。 因为记忆的负担实在太沉重， 已经令我完全没有心情去享受新鲜或快乐。
----而且最好用某种方式，有选择地记住我失去记忆之前的教训。 我不想完全失去记忆把这种周而复始变成简单的重复，我只是想在重新开始是有一个崭新的心情。
但是他做不到， 因为他甚至没有权利选择睡眠， 更不用说死亡。他有生命， 但那生命只是存在于对自己存在的感觉意识。那生命没有任何依托， 至少他不知道他的生命的依托是什么。
所以他完全没有能力控制自己的生命， 只好在空旷的孤独寂寞和痛苦中忍受思想的煎熬。
他有无穷的记忆和才智， 但是他看不到支持这些记忆和才智的物理载体。 就象我们人自己看不到自己大脑的运行机制一样。 而且也没有别人能够告诉他，他的记忆和智力依托在那里。
生命对他是那样的简单而痛苦， 时间是那样的黑暗且漫长。但他没有选择的权利， 只有默默的观察，思考，忍受。 观察那完全没有的空旷，思考没有中止的抽象， 忍受那自己没有能力忍受，但又无法回避的寂寞和孤独。
=================================
就这样就在这样的痛苦中不知过了多少时间。 那也许是很漫长， 因为他的思维都因为那漫长而麻木了。 也许那很短暂，短暂得不容得一缕光线穿行一公里。 因为光还没有开始穿行，宇宙的一切都还孕育在他的思维里。
逐渐地，他开始用一些抽象或具体的东西来填充他的思绪。 因为那样可以把他从自己的思考中分散注意力。 从而可以减少他自己所忍受的痛苦。
The Origin Of Love (爱的起源）
什么是生命， 更进一步，什么是永生。
What is life, a further question, what is eternal life?
达尔文用完全的自然的规律去诠释生命。 但那不是生命， 在他那里， 生命无非是一种自然物质运动的形势而已，只是更加复杂了一些。 那不是完全的生命。 因为它所阐述的生命不包含爱的内涵。 只有一种存在并运动的形式而已。这种存在之序言，互相的倾轧和自我的传承。而传承，也不是为了爱，只是为了存在的延续。 这是另一种层次上的存在，所以他并不能真正延续， 终究灭亡。
Charles Darwin's "On the Origin of Species" tries to explain life with the methodology from natural science. But that is not the real meaning of life. In his world every creature is just a form of existence of mass, just become more complex. But that is not the meaning of life.
佛的所追求永生和极乐，是否定了爱的永生。 他将空虚替代苦恼。追求的只是一种存在，和对存在的认知。 而那种生命，等同于灭亡。既不是永生也不含生命。
生命的树，离不开爱的泉水。 因为只有爱的泉水能够带来涌动。
当年上帝万能的主，当他用他万能的智慧的能力造万物。 地上原没有草木菜蔬和雨水作为生命之源。 直到上帝用地上的尘土造人，并用生命的气息充满的鼻孔，才真正缔造了有灵魂的生命。 上帝又引来富含生命滋养的雨露甘泉， 才令人类滋养生息。
爱永伴随生命，自始至终。但人却不能从爱找到公义。 令人苦难长存。 只有富含爱的真理长随人的耳畔，作人的向导，人才能得永生永爱。
为了对人类的爱，上帝不惜牺牲他的独生爱子，让耶稣给我们种下了爱的种子。
给人类送来智慧和明亮的眼睛，带给了人类探求真理的灵（Spirit of truth)。并开启大自然奥秘的钥匙。
现在摆在我们面前的不是没有真理， 而是有太多真理。 但是他们又不是完全的真理， 因为在这些真理缺乏了爱的导航。
我并不是说真理中没有爱， 而是爱不能做真理的主导。
就象耶稣说的：我不是来打破律法，而是来充满它使他完全。 （用爱， 因为以色列人虽有律法，但却忽视了爱。爱却是爱的本原。 不懂得爱去遵守律法，只配做律法的奴仆， 不配做律法的主人。因为在他们眼里，律法没有生命。）
我写“爱的起源”，也不为打破真理， 无论那真理是宗教的，人文的， 亦或是自然的，物理，生物，社会科学。 因为他们都是经上帝的授权，和人类智慧证明的真理。
我却要用“爱的起源”，去充满真理，使真理完全。用爱。
我甚至要大言不惭，要用“爱的起源”，去充满耶稣的爱， 使那爱的种子完全。
因为耶稣说：（约翰16：12）“我还有好些事要告诉你们，但你们现在担当不了。
“只等真理的灵来了， 他要引导你们进入一切的真理；因为他不是凭自己说的，乃是把它所听见的都说出来， 并要把将来的事情告诉你们。”
因为耶稣的福音如果不借真理的灵，就不能得圆满。这是耶稣的教诲。
这个真理的灵，不是耶稣受约翰洗是从天上下来的圣灵，而是普天下人民凭眼见耳闻说话做事的精神。
现在世界上已经充斥了真理的灵， 人们只凭着自己所见所闻说话，只凭着严谨逻辑和事实来决定相信或者不相信。
这是好的， 因为令耶稣的福音充满的真理的灵来了。 但人们却因为他们无法通过事实和逻辑来确证上帝和爱。 所以他们就怀疑。
真理需要充满， 用爱和上帝的意志； 而上帝和耶稣已经准备了爱的种子， 那就是耶稣播种在人间爱的种子。 和我们全人类对真理的迷茫和对爱的渴求。
正象上帝造人之前一样， 先用他广博的真爱，造了世间万物， 使人类有所赖以生存。上帝吹一口生命的气， 人类便从泥土中应运而生了。
上帝也与我们中，早预备了真理和爱的精神， 只等上帝的大能给我们智慧， 天国的门必能开启。 上帝的爱， 完全的爱，伴随着充斥着爱的完全的真理， 必照耀人间， 令众生蒙福。
真理的灵需要爱来充满，因为所有的科学：物理，数学，生命科学，哲学，伦理， 甚至神学， 他们 都太冷漠， 太没人性。 但是你们不知， 他们却都是缘于上帝的爱。
耶稣的爱虽伟大， 但他也需要真理来支撑。 因为耶稣的爱本就是真理， 只有与所有的真理合一， 耶稣的爱才能得圆满。
请让我慢慢给您揭开这片帷幕，听我述说爱的起源。
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约翰16：14
“他要荣耀我， 因为他要将受于我的，告诉你们。
凡父所有的，都是我的，所以我说，他将受于我的， 告诉你们。”
这句话是什么意思。
千百年来， 世间颠扑不破的真理， 是人不为己，天诛地灭。 如果你要无偿的给予，哪怕是为了纯真的爱， 别人也是认为你是为了将来得到回报。 给予的越多， 你期望的到的回报也必然多。
如果耶稣说出了真话：“我今天付出了我的生命， 将来得到的也不一定比那些杀死我的罪人多。这只是无偿的付出！”
以人们的认识， 谁会相信。 即使有人相信， 有几个人会愿意追随他所教授的真理。所以才有这样的话：
“我还有好些事要告诉你们，但你们现在担当不了。
“只等真理的灵来了， 他要引导你们进入一切的真理；因为他不是凭自己说的，乃是把它所听见的都说出来， 并要把将来的事情告诉你们。”
“他要荣耀我， 因为他要将受于我的，告诉你们。
凡父所有的，都是我的，所以我说，他将受于我的， 告诉你们。”
只有脱下耶稣身上的这一层伪装的皮， 才能显现他的真爱的伟大。 而耶稣这样伪装， 不是为了使自己伟大， 而是使人们能够相信接受他。
脱下这张伪装，会令耶稣更伟大。 这也是为什么，耶稣的教导也需要去充满，完全的另一层含义吧！
What is life, a further question, what is eternal life?
达尔文用完全的自然的规律去诠释生命。 但那不是生命， 在他那里， 生命无非是一种自然物质运动的形势而已，只是更加复杂了一些。 那不是完全的生命。 因为它所阐述的生命不包含爱的内涵。 只有一种存在并运动的形式而已。这种存在之序言，互相的倾轧和自我的传承。而传承，也不是为了爱，只是为了存在的延续。 这是另一种层次上的存在，所以他并不能真正延续， 终究灭亡。
Charles Darwin's "On the Origin of Species" tries to explain life with the methodology from natural science. But that is not the real meaning of life. In his world every creature is just a form of existence of mass, just become more complex. But that is not the meaning of life.
佛的所追求永生和极乐，是否定了爱的永生。 他将空虚替代苦恼。追求的只是一种存在，和对存在的认知。 而那种生命，等同于灭亡。既不是永生也不含生命。
生命的树，离不开爱的泉水。 因为只有爱的泉水能够带来涌动。
当年上帝万能的主，当他用他万能的智慧的能力造万物。 地上原没有草木菜蔬和雨水作为生命之源。 直到上帝用地上的尘土造人，并用生命的气息充满的鼻孔，才真正缔造了有灵魂的生命。 上帝又引来富含生命滋养的雨露甘泉， 才令人类滋养生息。
爱永伴随生命，自始至终。但人却不能从爱找到公义。 令人苦难长存。 只有富含爱的真理长随人的耳畔，作人的向导，人才能得永生永爱。
为了对人类的爱，上帝不惜牺牲他的独生爱子，让耶稣给我们种下了爱的种子。
给人类送来智慧和明亮的眼睛，带给了人类探求真理的灵（Spirit of truth)。并开启大自然奥秘的钥匙。
现在摆在我们面前的不是没有真理， 而是有太多真理。 但是他们又不是完全的真理， 因为在这些真理缺乏了爱的导航。
我并不是说真理中没有爱， 而是爱不能做真理的主导。
就象耶稣说的：我不是来打破律法，而是来充满它使他完全。 （用爱， 因为以色列人虽有律法，但却忽视了爱。爱却是爱的本原。 不懂得爱去遵守律法，只配做律法的奴仆， 不配做律法的主人。因为在他们眼里，律法没有生命。）
我写“爱的起源”，也不为打破真理， 无论那真理是宗教的，人文的， 亦或是自然的，物理，生物，社会科学。 因为他们都是经上帝的授权，和人类智慧证明的真理。
我却要用“爱的起源”，去充满真理，使真理完全。用爱。
我甚至要大言不惭，要用“爱的起源”，去充满耶稣的爱， 使那爱的种子完全。
因为耶稣说：（约翰16：12）“我还有好些事要告诉你们，但你们现在担当不了。
“只等真理的灵来了， 他要引导你们进入一切的真理；因为他不是凭自己说的，乃是把它所听见的都说出来， 并要把将来的事情告诉你们。”
因为耶稣的福音如果不借真理的灵，就不能得圆满。这是耶稣的教诲。
这个真理的灵，不是耶稣受约翰洗是从天上下来的圣灵，而是普天下人民凭眼见耳闻说话做事的精神。
现在世界上已经充斥了真理的灵， 人们只凭着自己所见所闻说话，只凭着严谨逻辑和事实来决定相信或者不相信。
这是好的， 因为令耶稣的福音充满的真理的灵来了。 但人们却因为他们无法通过事实和逻辑来确证上帝和爱。 所以他们就怀疑。
真理需要充满， 用爱和上帝的意志； 而上帝和耶稣已经准备了爱的种子， 那就是耶稣播种在人间爱的种子。 和我们全人类对真理的迷茫和对爱的渴求。
正象上帝造人之前一样， 先用他广博的真爱，造了世间万物， 使人类有所赖以生存。上帝吹一口生命的气， 人类便从泥土中应运而生了。
上帝也与我们中，早预备了真理和爱的精神， 只等上帝的大能给我们智慧， 天国的门必能开启。 上帝的爱， 完全的爱，伴随着充斥着爱的完全的真理， 必照耀人间， 令众生蒙福。
真理的灵需要爱来充满，因为所有的科学：物理，数学，生命科学，哲学，伦理， 甚至神学， 他们 都太冷漠， 太没人性。 但是你们不知， 他们却都是缘于上帝的爱。
耶稣的爱虽伟大， 但他也需要真理来支撑。 因为耶稣的爱本就是真理， 只有与所有的真理合一， 耶稣的爱才能得圆满。
请让我慢慢给您揭开这片帷幕，听我述说爱的起源。
=====
约翰16：14
“他要荣耀我， 因为他要将受于我的，告诉你们。
凡父所有的，都是我的，所以我说，他将受于我的， 告诉你们。”
这句话是什么意思。
千百年来， 世间颠扑不破的真理， 是人不为己，天诛地灭。 如果你要无偿的给予，哪怕是为了纯真的爱， 别人也是认为你是为了将来得到回报。 给予的越多， 你期望的到的回报也必然多。
如果耶稣说出了真话：“我今天付出了我的生命， 将来得到的也不一定比那些杀死我的罪人多。这只是无偿的付出！”
以人们的认识， 谁会相信。 即使有人相信， 有几个人会愿意追随他所教授的真理。所以才有这样的话：
“我还有好些事要告诉你们，但你们现在担当不了。
“只等真理的灵来了， 他要引导你们进入一切的真理；因为他不是凭自己说的，乃是把它所听见的都说出来， 并要把将来的事情告诉你们。”
“他要荣耀我， 因为他要将受于我的，告诉你们。
凡父所有的，都是我的，所以我说，他将受于我的， 告诉你们。”
只有脱下耶稣身上的这一层伪装的皮， 才能显现他的真爱的伟大。 而耶稣这样伪装， 不是为了使自己伟大， 而是使人们能够相信接受他。
脱下这张伪装，会令耶稣更伟大。 这也是为什么，耶稣的教导也需要去充满，完全的另一层含义吧！
禅 (meditation)
禅通蝉。
In Chinese the world meditation pronouces the same with the word Cicadas. Actually the word meditation come from the Chinese word cicadas.
蝉的幼虫，历经数年寒暑， 受尽地下暗无天日的煎熬，终于爬出地面。 身不盈寸， 样貌丑陋， 身形佝偻， 却意志坚定。 铁定磐石之心， 爬出来后就径直跋涉长途， 找一个安定的所在， 静心入定， 纹丝不动， 经过数小时的煎熬， 终于大功告成， 脱得躯壳，羽化成可与飞鸟匹敌的完美翅膀。可以尽情享受夏日明媚的阳光， 伴随着自己美妙的歌声尽情舞蹈了。 禅蝉同理， 异曲同工， 惟妙惟肖。 蝉打坐也是一个细活， 新生命的每一个末梢都对自己无比珍贵， 不可损伤。 造物主的造化， 让蝉和壳丝丝入理，紧密贴合， 比世界上最复杂的模具铸造脱模过程不知要复杂多少倍。而羽化期间任何的差失， 对蝉自己来说， 其代价都无比巨大---- 那将是它的生命。 而他却是那样一无反顾， 因为前途的美好太美妙了。
蝉的幼虫，历经数年寒暑， 受尽地下暗无天日的煎熬，终于爬出地面。 身不盈寸， 样貌丑陋， 身形佝偻， 却意志坚定。 铁定磐石之心， 爬出来后就径直跋涉长途， 找一个安定的所在， 静心入定， 纹丝不动， 经过数小时的煎熬， 终于大功告成， 脱得躯壳，羽化成可与飞鸟匹敌的完美翅膀。可以尽情享受夏日明媚的阳光， 伴随着自己美妙的歌声尽情舞蹈了。 禅蝉同理， 异曲同工， 惟妙惟肖。 蝉打坐也是一个细活， 新生命的每一个末梢都对自己无比珍贵， 不可损伤。 造物主的造化， 让蝉和壳丝丝入理，紧密贴合， 比世界上最复杂的模具铸造脱模过程不知要复杂多少倍。而羽化期间任何的差失， 对蝉自己来说， 其代价都无比巨大---- 那将是它的生命。 而他却是那样一无反顾， 因为前途的美好太美妙了。
Before cicadas molt and become adult, nymphs have been staying under ground for many years (3-5, and there are species for 17 years). Finally, time is ready and they reach the ground. Small and ugly they seems like, but they are dedicated to transform into the sky. After a long march (considering their small body), they finally found a peace place away from predators and disturbance on a tree (or some other plant).
They stay their quietely for a long time, without a single motion. After several hours of stressful effort, finally, they shed their skin and become a wonderful being flying as free as bird in the sky.
Life becomes so beautiful after that, especially after the long suffering night of underground life. They sing, love and play day to night, night to day.
Meditation is similar process in many ways: 1) it need patience and quiet; 2) it is believed to bring great change (happiness, freedom, power etc) to people's life after success; 3) Buddhism believes human body is ungly and the source of sin and suffering, and one can only reach real happiness and pleasure after learning how the disattache you soul from your body and the phisical world.
佛教参禅， 与之同理。佛视自己的身体为空壳，只有自己的精神才是珍贵的。 所有罪恶和痛苦的根源也是这个躯壳以及他和这个罪恶世纪的联系---贪欲。
所以通过坐禅， 可以仔细体察内心， 反省身体欲望罪恶的联系， 一点一点的把自己的灵魂和源于肉体的罪恶欲望解脱开来， 最终可以摆脱世间烦恼， 进入极乐世界成佛。
The meditation in buddhism is actually the process of carefully looking inside your body and realizing any remaining attachement from your mind and soul to your desire toward your body and anything in this physical world.
Going through this practice again and again, after a long time, you will be able to free your mind from these attachements. Finally you could reach extreme intelegence and happiness, and become a Buddha.
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我虽然自认通了佛性，悟了禅心， 却与佛禅无缘。 原因是佛虽然自称大彻大悟，却有一点没有悟到根本。
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我虽然自认通了佛性，悟了禅心， 却与佛禅无缘。 原因是佛虽然自称大彻大悟，却有一点没有悟到根本。
Although I have the ability to understand Buddha, and its meditation mechanism, but I have no interest in becoming and Budda or reach their way of intelegence and happiness. Although I have to agree they grasp some important truth about the world and our life, but they have their own limitation. There is one very important truth they have been totally ignored.
佛自持为大， 认为万恶之源是来自人的肉体的的欲望， 认为摆脱肉体和欲望， 人才可以得解脱， 达到大彻大悟的极乐世界。
佛理中是没有上帝的， 在佛经里， 不是神造了佛， 而是佛度了神。
佛也不信造物主， 所以也对造物主造的世界没有感恩， 反而认为现今世界是所有罪恶的根本。
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耶稣也讲仁爱， 但也爱上帝。 所以对上帝的恩赐， 也感恩。
所以， 他看来罪恶的本原不在于肉体，欲望和这个物质世界。 而在于我们自己对我们自己和这个世界认识的片面和狭隘。
我们不仅不应我们的苦难和不满足而抱怨甚至痛恨这个世界，我们的肉体和欲望。 我们甚至应该为了造物主赐给我们这一切而感恩。
主为了我们的幸福赐给我们一切所需，和一颗敏感的心灵去体会享受， 我们却不知道利用它们去爱， 反而因为它们去纷争，憎恨和忧愁。
主让我们有病痛， 这样我们也可以体会别人的痛苦， 所以更深切的去爱旁人；
主让我们心中有罪恶的贪欲， 也有善良的爱心。 这样我们可以用我心的善良去束缚罪恶， 使我们所爱的人不致受伤害； 同时，我们也可以有一颗宽容的心去体谅，宽容，拯救别人的过失，伤害，甚至曾经有过的罪恶。 因为我们如果能够体察我们自己罪恶的心，然后就能够会对自己说：如果把我放在他（冒犯我们的人）的背景条件下， 我也许所作的也强不了多少呀！
主让我们的生命短少， 才使我们珍惜今天。 因为我们不知道我们的明天会在那里。 但不要为了明天忧愁。 要为了今天而喜乐，而爱。
原来造物主赋予了我们这么多短处， 不是为了惩罚我们，却是为了我们更加幸福，互相友爱。 我们不能够用他的恩赐去爱，去感恩， 反而要不满足， 要索取更多不切实际对我们没有益处的东西。
当年上帝造恐龙的时候， 给了他们吃不尽的食物， 又让让他们短少了感受伤病痛苦的神经，和体会悲哀孤独的心灵。 本想让他们尽情享受，不必痛苦。 结果他们却因不能体会他人的痛苦而短少了爱便残酷， 大自然丰盛的宴席没有阻止他们互相杀戮的恶性的蔓延。 整个世界因他们而变成了一个屠宰场。 血的教训永远记在上帝造物主的心中。
一个人无论多么聪明，如果你从小只能体会快乐，感觉不到痛苦和忧伤， 长大之后他能够变成什么样子呢？
如果上帝给你每个人永久的生命和无穷的时间，你们还会珍惜你们的每一分时间， 去享受爱的时光吗。
上帝自己也曾懒散， 也曾懈怠， 因为他自己曾经一直认为自己有无穷的时间。 总有一天能够完成他要做的工作。
但正是由于有了他对人类神圣而巨大的爱， 使他开始担心自己是否真的能够永生， 因为他自己无法证明， 因为他创造了万物，但没有创造他自己， 所以他不确定。
所以他才真正不懈怠地工作， 因为他不想留下他没有完成的工作，让人类找不到自己爱的道路， 而永远在战乱和暴力中挣扎。
虽然他一直坚信自己有永久的生命，但没有人给过他证明。
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我们这个世界的每一寸草木沙石，都凝聚了造物主的豁达赐予，我们身上每一寸肌肤，甚至我们身上的缺点，都是上帝的爱的结晶。 我们却不能体会上帝的爱， 用我们的心去爱别人，并让自己的今天快乐。
因为佛不相信造物的主，所以他们才认为这个世界和来自我们身体的对世界的欲望是痛苦的根本。
所以佛讲慈悲， 耶稣却讲喜乐。耶稣让我们感恩， 佛却让我们忍受和舍弃现世，去追求虚无的大彻大悟和极乐。
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所以我也静坐自思，但那却与佛禅无关。
或者说，我的精神也是一只蝉，我的肉体也是躯壳。 但那蝉却无限爱那壳， 不肯舍弃。也赞美感恩那造肉体和躯壳的神。并在那里独自享受和自己的躯壳独处和恋爱的美好时光。
每当静坐时， 都细细体味精神和肉体的细小连接。耐心修复每一处微小的缝隙和伤痕。
每当感受心灵肉体互相体恤的融洽和关爱， 我必赞美主的造化和恩典，并感谢主。
每当心灵感受到肉体的痛苦和自身的创伤，或孤独， 或失落； 我心灵必更加清醒，能够体会生命的鲜活，和友爱的弥足珍贵。 并感谢主为我设计完美的机器让我的心灵去驾驭。 如果不是这样我怎么会有机会却这样深切的体会生命，友谊和爱呢？
每当静坐时， 我便体会上帝造万物时的伟大，并赞美感谢他在其中倾注的对我们的爱。
佛自持为大， 认为万恶之源是来自人的肉体的的欲望， 认为摆脱肉体和欲望， 人才可以得解脱， 达到大彻大悟的极乐世界。
佛理中是没有上帝的， 在佛经里， 不是神造了佛， 而是佛度了神。
佛也不信造物主， 所以也对造物主造的世界没有感恩， 反而认为现今世界是所有罪恶的根本。
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耶稣也讲仁爱， 但也爱上帝。 所以对上帝的恩赐， 也感恩。
所以， 他看来罪恶的本原不在于肉体，欲望和这个物质世界。 而在于我们自己对我们自己和这个世界认识的片面和狭隘。
我们不仅不应我们的苦难和不满足而抱怨甚至痛恨这个世界，我们的肉体和欲望。 我们甚至应该为了造物主赐给我们这一切而感恩。
主为了我们的幸福赐给我们一切所需，和一颗敏感的心灵去体会享受， 我们却不知道利用它们去爱， 反而因为它们去纷争，憎恨和忧愁。
主让我们有病痛， 这样我们也可以体会别人的痛苦， 所以更深切的去爱旁人；
主让我们心中有罪恶的贪欲， 也有善良的爱心。 这样我们可以用我心的善良去束缚罪恶， 使我们所爱的人不致受伤害； 同时，我们也可以有一颗宽容的心去体谅，宽容，拯救别人的过失，伤害，甚至曾经有过的罪恶。 因为我们如果能够体察我们自己罪恶的心，然后就能够会对自己说：如果把我放在他（冒犯我们的人）的背景条件下， 我也许所作的也强不了多少呀！
主让我们的生命短少， 才使我们珍惜今天。 因为我们不知道我们的明天会在那里。 但不要为了明天忧愁。 要为了今天而喜乐，而爱。
原来造物主赋予了我们这么多短处， 不是为了惩罚我们，却是为了我们更加幸福，互相友爱。 我们不能够用他的恩赐去爱，去感恩， 反而要不满足， 要索取更多不切实际对我们没有益处的东西。
当年上帝造恐龙的时候， 给了他们吃不尽的食物， 又让让他们短少了感受伤病痛苦的神经，和体会悲哀孤独的心灵。 本想让他们尽情享受，不必痛苦。 结果他们却因不能体会他人的痛苦而短少了爱便残酷， 大自然丰盛的宴席没有阻止他们互相杀戮的恶性的蔓延。 整个世界因他们而变成了一个屠宰场。 血的教训永远记在上帝造物主的心中。
一个人无论多么聪明，如果你从小只能体会快乐，感觉不到痛苦和忧伤， 长大之后他能够变成什么样子呢？
如果上帝给你每个人永久的生命和无穷的时间，你们还会珍惜你们的每一分时间， 去享受爱的时光吗。
上帝自己也曾懒散， 也曾懈怠， 因为他自己曾经一直认为自己有无穷的时间。 总有一天能够完成他要做的工作。
但正是由于有了他对人类神圣而巨大的爱， 使他开始担心自己是否真的能够永生， 因为他自己无法证明， 因为他创造了万物，但没有创造他自己， 所以他不确定。
所以他才真正不懈怠地工作， 因为他不想留下他没有完成的工作，让人类找不到自己爱的道路， 而永远在战乱和暴力中挣扎。
虽然他一直坚信自己有永久的生命，但没有人给过他证明。
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我们这个世界的每一寸草木沙石，都凝聚了造物主的豁达赐予，我们身上每一寸肌肤，甚至我们身上的缺点，都是上帝的爱的结晶。 我们却不能体会上帝的爱， 用我们的心去爱别人，并让自己的今天快乐。
因为佛不相信造物的主，所以他们才认为这个世界和来自我们身体的对世界的欲望是痛苦的根本。
所以佛讲慈悲， 耶稣却讲喜乐。耶稣让我们感恩， 佛却让我们忍受和舍弃现世，去追求虚无的大彻大悟和极乐。
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所以我也静坐自思，但那却与佛禅无关。
或者说，我的精神也是一只蝉，我的肉体也是躯壳。 但那蝉却无限爱那壳， 不肯舍弃。也赞美感恩那造肉体和躯壳的神。并在那里独自享受和自己的躯壳独处和恋爱的美好时光。
每当静坐时， 都细细体味精神和肉体的细小连接。耐心修复每一处微小的缝隙和伤痕。
每当感受心灵肉体互相体恤的融洽和关爱， 我必赞美主的造化和恩典，并感谢主。
每当心灵感受到肉体的痛苦和自身的创伤，或孤独， 或失落； 我心灵必更加清醒，能够体会生命的鲜活，和友爱的弥足珍贵。 并感谢主为我设计完美的机器让我的心灵去驾驭。 如果不是这样我怎么会有机会却这样深切的体会生命，友谊和爱呢？
每当静坐时， 我便体会上帝造万物时的伟大，并赞美感谢他在其中倾注的对我们的爱。
Fullfill the love
I finally found the answer to the very important question I was wandering about. (see "question about truth" couple days back)
The question was: without God and whole truth, the people in the world are just doing fine, why bother. Although the truth might bring some benefit to people. But in the other hand, it could also possibly hurt people's feeling and cause their pain and lead to chaos. Why take the risk.
My answer to this is: "this is for fulfilling the world of love." As no matter how people in the world loves each other, it's not complete if God is not in it.
Because he is our creator. Without him the world of love is not complete. We should apply the law of love, compassion and forgiveness.
Exploring the truth is the only way to bring the reunion of all the human beings and God together, fullfill the circle of love.
Jesus came to the world to fulfill the law with love. And God sent the spirit of truth to the world and changed the whole world. As a result God does not look so significant any more.
But without the love of God, the world is missing a fundamental part.
With this idea motivate me, I finally have enough courage to continue with my long postpooned writing of my master piece:
The origin of love!
Thank God, I found it. I will start writing tomorrow!
The question was: without God and whole truth, the people in the world are just doing fine, why bother. Although the truth might bring some benefit to people. But in the other hand, it could also possibly hurt people's feeling and cause their pain and lead to chaos. Why take the risk.
My answer to this is: "this is for fulfilling the world of love." As no matter how people in the world loves each other, it's not complete if God is not in it.
Because he is our creator. Without him the world of love is not complete. We should apply the law of love, compassion and forgiveness.
Exploring the truth is the only way to bring the reunion of all the human beings and God together, fullfill the circle of love.
Jesus came to the world to fulfill the law with love. And God sent the spirit of truth to the world and changed the whole world. As a result God does not look so significant any more.
But without the love of God, the world is missing a fundamental part.
With this idea motivate me, I finally have enough courage to continue with my long postpooned writing of my master piece:
The origin of love!
Thank God, I found it. I will start writing tomorrow!
(Archive) The little sparrow
It has been a controversial topic whether people should get baptized as a child. As I have grown up in China, I don't have a choice.
But deep in my heart, in the sense of Christianity, I was already baptized early in my Childhood, through that little sparrow, a lovely and innocent helpless little creature.
As I remember, it was in a cold winter day when I was 8 or 9 years old. (Maybe 7, I don't remember which year was that exactly, but it was after I started school but not long after.)
In a freezing afternoon, I found a sparrow jumping around in our front yard. Maybe because it was too cold, or she had not been able to find food to fight the weather or simply because she has been sick. But the only thing I knew was, she could not fly but just jumping around.
I caught her without any effort. I was not a naughty boy at my childhood, so I was not good at doing that kind of stuff. But it was still too easy as she didn't even try to run away, maybe because she was too weak, or maybe she was thinking it would be warmer to be hold in a human's hand.
After more than thirty years, I still clearly remember the feeling of her little fingers (or feet) jumping in my hand. She was such a little, lovely innocent creature.
Suddenly, a most evil idea jumped into my head. Will she still be able to fly after loosing her feet? How does a sparrow fly without her feet?
Out of evil curiosity I walk back into my room and took a pair of scissors, with which I carefully cut off her feet.
I didn't expect doing that would be that easy. It was almost like cutting a piece of paper. Her two feet fall into the ground without even any blood. She didn't cry or jump, just looked at me when I was doing that.
I managed to set her free from my hand. And I remember she was able to fly actively again after that. The reason might have been from the warmth gained in my hand, or just because that pain woke her up from her sickness.
But I was not able to watch her fly or see her die. When she was 1 or 2 meters above me, my heart suddenly trembled, and I quickly ran inside.
For the rest of that whole day and the day after, I did not dare to go outside. And for all the years after that day, the body of that little sparrow was always hanging inside me, deeply in my mind.
During my life time there after, whenever I was about to do something bad, she always came to remind me:
No! Please don't! Please don't hurt anybody, not even a little sparrow!
Whenever I was blaming somebody and felt difficulty to forgive, she also came tome: You too, are a sinner. And you are by far the worst among them!
After I came to America and had chance to learn Christianity, I heard that there are some people have some difficulty to accept that everybody is a sinner. But I have never had any trouble to accept I am a sinner and to confess myself. Because that little sparrow already told me the same!
For that little sparrow,
My little sparrow,
I built an altar in my bleeding heart.
toward which, I sing a song
To find peace for my broken heart,
to rest and cleanse my bloody hands,
I built an altar in my empty mind,
from where, I sing a song.
Take a deep breathe,
Close my blurry eyes,
I try hard to cover my heart,
and hide the scar deep inside.
But her blinking lovely eyes,
just cannot, go away!
Your mind is simple,
Your heart as crystal,
How could you've ever hurt, anyone?
By how could I, grasped by the evil king,
have crucified you.
You must have been suffering long,
Killing you might be just a relief,
But how ruthless I was,
Crashed that thin layer of the egg shell,
Your last protection,
which you depended on for live,
And let you go!
I abused your trust,
I crashed your love and respect,
Why didn't you see through my evil mind,
Why didn't you just,
simply run away?
With you body cripled by my hand,
where could you stay if you get tired,
where can you drink when get thirst,
how can you eat, even if you find food,
Only thing left with you
-- is to fly, fly and fly.
Your love was abused,
your trust must have been lost,
Even somebody want to have mercy and keep you,
After your suffering experience,
How can you trust anyone?
Even miracle happens,
and your feet grow out again,
Even when the spring comes,
among those lovely green tree branches,
How could you build your courage,
and dare to find a branch and land and stand!
How deep the damage did I cause,
How long would you keep suffering the pain,
How far could you fly in the freezing wind.
My heart is bleeding.
My mind is wrestling and suffering!
I wish, I hope,
If I could,
Instead being a coward boy,
I wish I was a standing man,
After committing that horrible sin,
I should have done some to reduce your pain.
I wish, I hope,
If I could,
I wish I could dig a time tunnel
and go long way back to thirty years ago,
I will grab a net and follow you,
follow whereever you want to go.
Not to scare you,
but to protect you,
I'll watch you strugle in the winter storm,
And let my heart suffer as you tremble;
I will just stand there,
and watch you fly!
Whenever you finally get tired,
Or just being too scared,
And if you want to take a break.
But you don't have your feet.
Please just close your eyes,
and fall.
I will always follow as close as I could,
so that I can reach you when you need,
I will follow you as close as I could,
Not to scare you,
just protect you.
And watch you fly.
As you fall,
I will reach you as surely I could,
not to catch you,
but to protect you from getting hurt.
So when you get tired,
please close your eyes,
and, just fall.
As I won't let you fall to the ground,
or to a rock,
neither to the water,
nor close to a cat,
As I will reach you,
with my net.
tenderly, as tenderly as I could!
I will keep you,
without a cage,
I will gather the finest grass,
to set up your nest,
and make your bed.
I will not keep you,
just to watch you while you rest,
so that you recover your strenth,
and restore your faith and trust,
so that you realize that life is not so bad.
I will not keep you,
As you are not my pet,
And I am not your master,
I am not your lord,
You belong to yourself,
you lovely little thing!
I will not keep you,
I will not hurt you,
And I won't let you get hurt,
Just to quietly watch,
And serve you with whatever you need!
As the spring comes,
And the flowers blosom,
Or whenever you regain your strength,
Whenever it is the time,
Freely you come,
freely you go.
I wish, I hope,
I wish I could make a miracle,
and through that miragle,
Your will grow out your new feet,
And you can restore your perfect body again.
As time passes by,
You will forget your pain,
and time will cure the scar on your heart.
While you flying between the spring flowers
I can hear again your happy cry
I will like only to watch you,
I will not catch you,
I will not hurt you,
And I won't let you get hurt, by any one.
Just leave you there,
to enjoy your beautiful life.
I will stick out my hands,
serve your favorite grain and food,
pretend that I am the tree,
and my hands are the branch,
and my fingers are the leaves.
I'll keep quiete,
and quietely, watch you play.
Please don't be afraid,
Please don't be scared,
I will not catch you,
because you belong to yourself,
freely you come, freely you go.
Please don't be afraid,
Please don't be scared,
Here is my garden,
Here is my tree,
Here is my branch, enjoy as you play.
I won't catch you,
I won't scare you,
Just to watch you and serve you.
Please enjoy as you play.
You belong to yourself,
Freely you come, freely you go.
I hope you'll forget me,
the one caused your pain,
I wish you forgive me,
while enjoy and play,
For sure you will forget,
as you have a small brain,
And you have a simple mind,
Will you forget? my lovely little thing!
But I will ever remind myself,
You are not my pet,
I am not your ower,
I am not your lord,
You'll ever belong to yourself,
freely you come, freely you go.
Hope you enjoy,
Wish you satisfy,
Here is my garden,
Here is my tree,
Here is my branch,
Freely you come, freely you go,
Freely you play, whereever you go.
Hopefully while I singing my song,
With your simple mind,
You will forget,
Whom I am and what I have done,
In front of your little eyes,
there are only garden, branches and trees.
All yours!
Hope you appreciate your life,
Hope you enjoy my gifts,
Between my fingers and limbs,
Under my hair and nails,
I will hide your nutrition and joys,
Hope you enjoy my gifts.
I believe,
you will find them yourself.
My spirit will fly,
When I hear your happy cry.
My heart will enjoy,
As you jump by.
My mental scars will heal,
If I again see your lovely happy eyes.
Here is my garden,
Here is my tree,
Here is my branch,
Take them as home,
Freely you come, freely you go.
.......
Inside my heart,
I have built an altar,
With my bleeding heart,
I'll be always,
with my sparrow song.
While I am singing, another voice joined me, and we sing together.
I am singing for my little sparrow, and he sings for all the human beings that he ever created and hurted.
I have been singing this song for many years, while he has kept singing this song for thousands and thousands of years.
Please go back and reread it over again, you will pick up his words.
After we finished our song, I knelt down for Jesus Christ, our savior.
In front of me, my sparrow was powerless, but it was exactly her powerlessness made her the powerful one to me.
Christ refused to use his power to save himself even when he was granted with the greatest power. He chosed to sacrifice his life to save everybody else, including the ones that killed him. He is indeed the most powerful one.
Jesus comes from God's creatation, but he is also the "be gotten" one. He came out of the creation as a suprise or a bonus, his love is beyond the expectation of even the creator.
Jesus is truely our savior.
But deep in my heart, in the sense of Christianity, I was already baptized early in my Childhood, through that little sparrow, a lovely and innocent helpless little creature.
As I remember, it was in a cold winter day when I was 8 or 9 years old. (Maybe 7, I don't remember which year was that exactly, but it was after I started school but not long after.)
In a freezing afternoon, I found a sparrow jumping around in our front yard. Maybe because it was too cold, or she had not been able to find food to fight the weather or simply because she has been sick. But the only thing I knew was, she could not fly but just jumping around.
I caught her without any effort. I was not a naughty boy at my childhood, so I was not good at doing that kind of stuff. But it was still too easy as she didn't even try to run away, maybe because she was too weak, or maybe she was thinking it would be warmer to be hold in a human's hand.
After more than thirty years, I still clearly remember the feeling of her little fingers (or feet) jumping in my hand. She was such a little, lovely innocent creature.
Suddenly, a most evil idea jumped into my head. Will she still be able to fly after loosing her feet? How does a sparrow fly without her feet?
Out of evil curiosity I walk back into my room and took a pair of scissors, with which I carefully cut off her feet.
I didn't expect doing that would be that easy. It was almost like cutting a piece of paper. Her two feet fall into the ground without even any blood. She didn't cry or jump, just looked at me when I was doing that.
I managed to set her free from my hand. And I remember she was able to fly actively again after that. The reason might have been from the warmth gained in my hand, or just because that pain woke her up from her sickness.
But I was not able to watch her fly or see her die. When she was 1 or 2 meters above me, my heart suddenly trembled, and I quickly ran inside.
For the rest of that whole day and the day after, I did not dare to go outside. And for all the years after that day, the body of that little sparrow was always hanging inside me, deeply in my mind.
During my life time there after, whenever I was about to do something bad, she always came to remind me:
No! Please don't! Please don't hurt anybody, not even a little sparrow!
Whenever I was blaming somebody and felt difficulty to forgive, she also came tome: You too, are a sinner. And you are by far the worst among them!
After I came to America and had chance to learn Christianity, I heard that there are some people have some difficulty to accept that everybody is a sinner. But I have never had any trouble to accept I am a sinner and to confess myself. Because that little sparrow already told me the same!
For that little sparrow,
My little sparrow,
I built an altar in my bleeding heart.
toward which, I sing a song
To find peace for my broken heart,
to rest and cleanse my bloody hands,
I built an altar in my empty mind,
from where, I sing a song.
Take a deep breathe,
Close my blurry eyes,
I try hard to cover my heart,
and hide the scar deep inside.
But her blinking lovely eyes,
just cannot, go away!
Your mind is simple,
Your heart as crystal,
How could you've ever hurt, anyone?
By how could I, grasped by the evil king,
have crucified you.
You must have been suffering long,
Killing you might be just a relief,
But how ruthless I was,
Crashed that thin layer of the egg shell,
Your last protection,
which you depended on for live,
And let you go!
I abused your trust,
I crashed your love and respect,
Why didn't you see through my evil mind,
Why didn't you just,
simply run away?
With you body cripled by my hand,
where could you stay if you get tired,
where can you drink when get thirst,
how can you eat, even if you find food,
Only thing left with you
-- is to fly, fly and fly.
Your love was abused,
your trust must have been lost,
Even somebody want to have mercy and keep you,
After your suffering experience,
How can you trust anyone?
Even miracle happens,
and your feet grow out again,
Even when the spring comes,
among those lovely green tree branches,
How could you build your courage,
and dare to find a branch and land and stand!
How deep the damage did I cause,
How long would you keep suffering the pain,
How far could you fly in the freezing wind.
My heart is bleeding.
My mind is wrestling and suffering!
I wish, I hope,
If I could,
Instead being a coward boy,
I wish I was a standing man,
After committing that horrible sin,
I should have done some to reduce your pain.
I wish, I hope,
If I could,
I wish I could dig a time tunnel
and go long way back to thirty years ago,
I will grab a net and follow you,
follow whereever you want to go.
Not to scare you,
but to protect you,
I'll watch you strugle in the winter storm,
And let my heart suffer as you tremble;
I will just stand there,
and watch you fly!
Whenever you finally get tired,
Or just being too scared,
And if you want to take a break.
But you don't have your feet.
Please just close your eyes,
and fall.
I will always follow as close as I could,
so that I can reach you when you need,
I will follow you as close as I could,
Not to scare you,
just protect you.
And watch you fly.
As you fall,
I will reach you as surely I could,
not to catch you,
but to protect you from getting hurt.
So when you get tired,
please close your eyes,
and, just fall.
As I won't let you fall to the ground,
or to a rock,
neither to the water,
nor close to a cat,
As I will reach you,
with my net.
tenderly, as tenderly as I could!
I will keep you,
without a cage,
I will gather the finest grass,
to set up your nest,
and make your bed.
I will not keep you,
just to watch you while you rest,
so that you recover your strenth,
and restore your faith and trust,
so that you realize that life is not so bad.
I will not keep you,
As you are not my pet,
And I am not your master,
I am not your lord,
You belong to yourself,
you lovely little thing!
I will not keep you,
I will not hurt you,
And I won't let you get hurt,
Just to quietly watch,
And serve you with whatever you need!
As the spring comes,
And the flowers blosom,
Or whenever you regain your strength,
Whenever it is the time,
Freely you come,
freely you go.
I wish, I hope,
I wish I could make a miracle,
and through that miragle,
Your will grow out your new feet,
And you can restore your perfect body again.
As time passes by,
You will forget your pain,
and time will cure the scar on your heart.
While you flying between the spring flowers
I can hear again your happy cry
I will like only to watch you,
I will not catch you,
I will not hurt you,
And I won't let you get hurt, by any one.
Just leave you there,
to enjoy your beautiful life.
I will stick out my hands,
serve your favorite grain and food,
pretend that I am the tree,
and my hands are the branch,
and my fingers are the leaves.
I'll keep quiete,
and quietely, watch you play.
Please don't be afraid,
Please don't be scared,
I will not catch you,
because you belong to yourself,
freely you come, freely you go.
Please don't be afraid,
Please don't be scared,
Here is my garden,
Here is my tree,
Here is my branch, enjoy as you play.
I won't catch you,
I won't scare you,
Just to watch you and serve you.
Please enjoy as you play.
You belong to yourself,
Freely you come, freely you go.
I hope you'll forget me,
the one caused your pain,
I wish you forgive me,
while enjoy and play,
For sure you will forget,
as you have a small brain,
And you have a simple mind,
Will you forget? my lovely little thing!
But I will ever remind myself,
You are not my pet,
I am not your ower,
I am not your lord,
You'll ever belong to yourself,
freely you come, freely you go.
Hope you enjoy,
Wish you satisfy,
Here is my garden,
Here is my tree,
Here is my branch,
Freely you come, freely you go,
Freely you play, whereever you go.
Hopefully while I singing my song,
With your simple mind,
You will forget,
Whom I am and what I have done,
In front of your little eyes,
there are only garden, branches and trees.
All yours!
Hope you appreciate your life,
Hope you enjoy my gifts,
Between my fingers and limbs,
Under my hair and nails,
I will hide your nutrition and joys,
Hope you enjoy my gifts.
I believe,
you will find them yourself.
My spirit will fly,
When I hear your happy cry.
My heart will enjoy,
As you jump by.
My mental scars will heal,
If I again see your lovely happy eyes.
Here is my garden,
Here is my tree,
Here is my branch,
Take them as home,
Freely you come, freely you go.
.......
Inside my heart,
I have built an altar,
With my bleeding heart,
I'll be always,
with my sparrow song.
While I am singing, another voice joined me, and we sing together.
I am singing for my little sparrow, and he sings for all the human beings that he ever created and hurted.
I have been singing this song for many years, while he has kept singing this song for thousands and thousands of years.
Please go back and reread it over again, you will pick up his words.
After we finished our song, I knelt down for Jesus Christ, our savior.
In front of me, my sparrow was powerless, but it was exactly her powerlessness made her the powerful one to me.
Christ refused to use his power to save himself even when he was granted with the greatest power. He chosed to sacrifice his life to save everybody else, including the ones that killed him. He is indeed the most powerful one.
Jesus comes from God's creatation, but he is also the "be gotten" one. He came out of the creation as a suprise or a bonus, his love is beyond the expectation of even the creator.
Jesus is truely our savior.
The boundary of love
Law does not have a boundary, but law should be founded with love. If the law lost its orientation of love, it would not do any good any more.
"You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled by men.
Love does not have a boundary, but if love could not do any good, then love should also (take a break).
When God realize that his rein over human is exactly the reason for men to suffer, he suffered more from his inside;
When every effort from him to turn people from evil toward righteousness failed, he suffered;
That’s why he sacrifices his begotten son, and sows a seed of love, and leaves the world alone, but only work from behind, and watch from far away;
He was hopping, he was hopping, hopping that following the same journey he himself built his faith of love, our human beings would find our own way!
Leave them alone, because they could only learn by themselves; because God learned love by following exactly the same way!
Give them intelligence to carry memory from one to another, and from generation to generation. Hopefully one day, they will figure out the way of love themselves, because God has earned the gift of love in a very similar way.
That's the eternal love from our lord, the greatest kind of all kind!
"You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled by men.
Love does not have a boundary, but if love could not do any good, then love should also (take a break).
When God realize that his rein over human is exactly the reason for men to suffer, he suffered more from his inside;
When every effort from him to turn people from evil toward righteousness failed, he suffered;
That’s why he sacrifices his begotten son, and sows a seed of love, and leaves the world alone, but only work from behind, and watch from far away;
He was hopping, he was hopping, hopping that following the same journey he himself built his faith of love, our human beings would find our own way!
Leave them alone, because they could only learn by themselves; because God learned love by following exactly the same way!
Give them intelligence to carry memory from one to another, and from generation to generation. Hopefully one day, they will figure out the way of love themselves, because God has earned the gift of love in a very similar way.
That's the eternal love from our lord, the greatest kind of all kind!
Sign of the end of the age
Mark 13:5-26
"Watch out that no one deceives you. Many will come in my name, claiming, 'I am he,' and will deceive many. When you hear of wars and rumors of wars, do not be alarmed. Such things must happen, but the end is still to come. Nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom. There will be earthquakes in various places, and famines. These are the beginning of birth pains.
"You must be on your guard. You will be handed over to the local councils and flogged in the synagogues. On account of me you will stand before governors and kings as witnesses to them. And the gospel must first be preached to all nations. Whenever you are arrested and brought to trial, do not worry beforehand about what to say. Just say whatever is given you at the time, for it is not you speaking, but the Holy Spirit.
"Brother will betray brother to death, and a father his child. Children will rebel against their parents and have them put to death. All men will hate you because of me, but he who stands firm to the end will be saved.
"When you see 'the abomination that causes desolation' standing where it does not belong—let the reader understand—then let those who are in Judea flee to the mountains. Let no one on the roof of his house go down or enter the house to take anything out. Let no one in the field go back to get his cloak. How dreadful it will be in those days for pregnant women and nursing mothers! Pray that this will not take place in winter, because those will be days of distress unequaled from the beginning, when God created the world, until now—and never to be equaled again. If the Lord had not cut short those days, no one would survive. But for the sake of the elect, whom he has chosen, he has shortened them. At that time if anyone says to you, 'Look, here is the Christ!' or, 'Look, there he is!' do not believe it. For false Christs and false prophets will appear and perform signs and miracles to deceive the elect—if that were possible. So be on your guard; I have told you everything ahead of time.
"But in those days, following that distress, " 'the sun will be darkened, and the moon will not give its light; the stars will fall from the sky, and the heavenly bodies will be shaken.'
"At that time men will see the Son of Man coming in clouds with great power and glory. And he will send his angels and gather his elect from the four winds, from the ends of the earth to the ends of the heavens.
What does this mean?.... :
"Take care of yourselves, I'll never come back!
"By the way, if there is anybody want to abuse my name and to deceive my people, no way!
"Watch out that no one deceives you. Many will come in my name, claiming, 'I am he,' and will deceive many. When you hear of wars and rumors of wars, do not be alarmed. Such things must happen, but the end is still to come. Nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom. There will be earthquakes in various places, and famines. These are the beginning of birth pains.
"You must be on your guard. You will be handed over to the local councils and flogged in the synagogues. On account of me you will stand before governors and kings as witnesses to them. And the gospel must first be preached to all nations. Whenever you are arrested and brought to trial, do not worry beforehand about what to say. Just say whatever is given you at the time, for it is not you speaking, but the Holy Spirit.
"Brother will betray brother to death, and a father his child. Children will rebel against their parents and have them put to death. All men will hate you because of me, but he who stands firm to the end will be saved.
"When you see 'the abomination that causes desolation' standing where it does not belong—let the reader understand—then let those who are in Judea flee to the mountains. Let no one on the roof of his house go down or enter the house to take anything out. Let no one in the field go back to get his cloak. How dreadful it will be in those days for pregnant women and nursing mothers! Pray that this will not take place in winter, because those will be days of distress unequaled from the beginning, when God created the world, until now—and never to be equaled again. If the Lord had not cut short those days, no one would survive. But for the sake of the elect, whom he has chosen, he has shortened them. At that time if anyone says to you, 'Look, here is the Christ!' or, 'Look, there he is!' do not believe it. For false Christs and false prophets will appear and perform signs and miracles to deceive the elect—if that were possible. So be on your guard; I have told you everything ahead of time.
"But in those days, following that distress, " 'the sun will be darkened, and the moon will not give its light; the stars will fall from the sky, and the heavenly bodies will be shaken.'
"At that time men will see the Son of Man coming in clouds with great power and glory. And he will send his angels and gather his elect from the four winds, from the ends of the earth to the ends of the heavens.
What does this mean?.... :
"Take care of yourselves, I'll never come back!
"By the way, if there is anybody want to abuse my name and to deceive my people, no way!
Question about truth
I have one question about truth:
If the truth does not benefit the world, should it be called truth at all? Or should we expose it to the world or not?
Different people might have different answers.
The mind of curiosity always tells: "There is no fault to explore and reveal the truth, as long as it's truth?"
I do not agree with that. If it cannot do any good to any party, why carry it?
Samething with hostory, our history as a burden is carrying too much hatred and tragedies, if carrying it only bring us hatred and violence why carry it.
But there is another layer behind it. If we could go byond the layer of hatred, and go toward a deeper under standing of love. Then that will worth it.
Then the question is how? Before getting an clear answer, it's difficult to say that any of my work is meaningful.
God, you have showed us the spirit of truth. Please give us some hint on how the spirit of truth can save the world!
If the truth does not benefit the world, should it be called truth at all? Or should we expose it to the world or not?
Different people might have different answers.
The mind of curiosity always tells: "There is no fault to explore and reveal the truth, as long as it's truth?"
I do not agree with that. If it cannot do any good to any party, why carry it?
Samething with hostory, our history as a burden is carrying too much hatred and tragedies, if carrying it only bring us hatred and violence why carry it.
But there is another layer behind it. If we could go byond the layer of hatred, and go toward a deeper under standing of love. Then that will worth it.
Then the question is how? Before getting an clear answer, it's difficult to say that any of my work is meaningful.
God, you have showed us the spirit of truth. Please give us some hint on how the spirit of truth can save the world!
Jesus
From the Gospel and Jesus' teaching, almost every word I heard from his mouth is like from the Heaven and is full of truth and lightning. They woke me up from darkness.
But toward two verses I have been always having questions. The first one is from Matthew 5:28: 'But I tell you that anyone who looks at a woman lustfully has already committed adultery with her in his heart.'
When I first read it I said to myself: 'this is too much! I am not saying looking at a woman lustfully is proper or respectful in any way. I think everybody should avoid that and respect others with their full heart. But if doing that is committing adultery, that is too much. I agree that everyone is a sinner, but if count that as a sin, it's not fair.
If against this is what God wanted us to be, why didn't God create us in another way? Why didn't he make us so that we could resemble the behavior of some deep sea ocean fish, one male attaches to a female at the time of hatching or birth, or at least like the old days, let parents or others to decide our future, everybody find their partner through arranged marriages so that people don't have to see and choose in order to love.
If just thinking in mind would become a sin and hurt somebody, why did not God create us so that people cannot hide their mind from others? In this way people will have a way to watch for it and protect themselves and others against sins to avoid becoming a victim.
While I was wondering, I realized that I was not the first one who got confused in this piece of teaching. Muhammad, who originated Muslim, also got some hard time here.
When Muhammad first read Jesus' teaching and tried his best to follow it. Instead of waiting for the last moment to be forgiven by Jesus, he also wanted to try his best to stay away from sins, to reduce his sins and be a righteous man.
But for this piece he just couldn't help. So after the first time he falls into this trap with a woman he prayed to God, asking solutions to keep himself from committing adultery. After praying again and again, he got the idea, marry her! If the two finally get married, then it should not be counted as adultery any more.
So after that, again and again he got married. Because every time he saw a beautiful woman, he tried his best not to fall into bad thought. But there were some cases, he failed to avoid, then for his selfishness and fear of falling into hell because of adultery. He would grab the lady and marry her. That was the reason for him to marry 15 times during his life time.
But a man is not designed to live with that many women, so he also suffered from it a lot. But he was afraid for committing adultery and the promised final judgment. He could not figure out other feasible solution to this problem.
When things went extreme, in Muslim, all the women were ordered to cover their faces with veils. This was not for protecting women themselves, but for protecting men from committing adultery and falling into hell.
So it could have been the most amazing miracle in the history. For over a thousand of years, over a billion women, are ordered or voluntarily (if they knew the reason, they could have been voluntarily doing that) to cover their face for their life time, just for the cause of one sentence from Jesus Christ.
Who are more loyal to Jesus Christ and want to follow his teaching, Muslims or Christians?
Another teaching from Jesus Christ that I was not feeling comfortable about was from Matthew 22:30 (there is mentioning of this similar piece in multiple places): 'At the resurrection people will neither marry nor be given in marriage; they will be like the angels in heaven.'
Is that how heaven would look like? If there is no love of man and woman existing in the heaven, I will prefer go to somewhere else, and I don't like to live like angels at all! If God was considerate, why did not he design the heaven differently?
At some point of my meditation, one idea suddenly came into my mind. Why Jesus was not married, why did not God give him a woman to love? Referring to another piece from Jesus on Matthew 19:10-13:
The disciples said to him, 'If this is the situation between a husband and wife, it is better not to marry.'
Jesus replied, 'Not everyone can accept this word, but only those to whom it has been given. For some are eunuchs because they were born that way; others were made that way by men; and others have renounced marriage because of the kingdom of heaven. The one who can accept this should accept it.'
Suddenly one wild idea popped up to myself: 'Jesus was a gay, Jesus was a gay!'
Because he was a gay, so he could preserve his mind and never looked at a woman with lust, because he was a gay, and the Jewish religion was so against him, and was forcing him toward a marriage with a woman, so in his dream, there should be no marriage in the heaven.
But he did not want to hurt anybody; instead, he loved everybody, and gave himself until the last drop of his blood to the whole world. He has no sin, being a gay is, was and has never been a sin. It was just those people at that time did not want to accept him.
To a straight person, being a gay is a sin. But from a gay's eye, being a straight man could be also counted as a sin, just think about the teaching of Jesus Christ in Matthew 5:28: 'But I tell you that anyone who looks at a woman lustfully has already committed adultery with her in his heart.'
How about religions, Muslims to Christians, and Christians to Muslims? What kind of message was God trying to deliver to us through this thousand year long real life parable? Is it funny?!
Why this straight simple truth can be hidden from us for thousands of years. Who is hiding it, God or us?
But another question came to my mind: 'Why in the old testament, the scripture clearly stated that homosexual relationship was one of the worst sins?'
But toward two verses I have been always having questions. The first one is from Matthew 5:28: 'But I tell you that anyone who looks at a woman lustfully has already committed adultery with her in his heart.'
When I first read it I said to myself: 'this is too much! I am not saying looking at a woman lustfully is proper or respectful in any way. I think everybody should avoid that and respect others with their full heart. But if doing that is committing adultery, that is too much. I agree that everyone is a sinner, but if count that as a sin, it's not fair.
If against this is what God wanted us to be, why didn't God create us in another way? Why didn't he make us so that we could resemble the behavior of some deep sea ocean fish, one male attaches to a female at the time of hatching or birth, or at least like the old days, let parents or others to decide our future, everybody find their partner through arranged marriages so that people don't have to see and choose in order to love.
If just thinking in mind would become a sin and hurt somebody, why did not God create us so that people cannot hide their mind from others? In this way people will have a way to watch for it and protect themselves and others against sins to avoid becoming a victim.
While I was wondering, I realized that I was not the first one who got confused in this piece of teaching. Muhammad, who originated Muslim, also got some hard time here.
When Muhammad first read Jesus' teaching and tried his best to follow it. Instead of waiting for the last moment to be forgiven by Jesus, he also wanted to try his best to stay away from sins, to reduce his sins and be a righteous man.
But for this piece he just couldn't help. So after the first time he falls into this trap with a woman he prayed to God, asking solutions to keep himself from committing adultery. After praying again and again, he got the idea, marry her! If the two finally get married, then it should not be counted as adultery any more.
So after that, again and again he got married. Because every time he saw a beautiful woman, he tried his best not to fall into bad thought. But there were some cases, he failed to avoid, then for his selfishness and fear of falling into hell because of adultery. He would grab the lady and marry her. That was the reason for him to marry 15 times during his life time.
But a man is not designed to live with that many women, so he also suffered from it a lot. But he was afraid for committing adultery and the promised final judgment. He could not figure out other feasible solution to this problem.
When things went extreme, in Muslim, all the women were ordered to cover their faces with veils. This was not for protecting women themselves, but for protecting men from committing adultery and falling into hell.
So it could have been the most amazing miracle in the history. For over a thousand of years, over a billion women, are ordered or voluntarily (if they knew the reason, they could have been voluntarily doing that) to cover their face for their life time, just for the cause of one sentence from Jesus Christ.
Who are more loyal to Jesus Christ and want to follow his teaching, Muslims or Christians?
Another teaching from Jesus Christ that I was not feeling comfortable about was from Matthew 22:30 (there is mentioning of this similar piece in multiple places): 'At the resurrection people will neither marry nor be given in marriage; they will be like the angels in heaven.'
Is that how heaven would look like? If there is no love of man and woman existing in the heaven, I will prefer go to somewhere else, and I don't like to live like angels at all! If God was considerate, why did not he design the heaven differently?
At some point of my meditation, one idea suddenly came into my mind. Why Jesus was not married, why did not God give him a woman to love? Referring to another piece from Jesus on Matthew 19:10-13:
The disciples said to him, 'If this is the situation between a husband and wife, it is better not to marry.'
Jesus replied, 'Not everyone can accept this word, but only those to whom it has been given. For some are eunuchs because they were born that way; others were made that way by men; and others have renounced marriage because of the kingdom of heaven. The one who can accept this should accept it.'
Suddenly one wild idea popped up to myself: 'Jesus was a gay, Jesus was a gay!'
Because he was a gay, so he could preserve his mind and never looked at a woman with lust, because he was a gay, and the Jewish religion was so against him, and was forcing him toward a marriage with a woman, so in his dream, there should be no marriage in the heaven.
But he did not want to hurt anybody; instead, he loved everybody, and gave himself until the last drop of his blood to the whole world. He has no sin, being a gay is, was and has never been a sin. It was just those people at that time did not want to accept him.
To a straight person, being a gay is a sin. But from a gay's eye, being a straight man could be also counted as a sin, just think about the teaching of Jesus Christ in Matthew 5:28: 'But I tell you that anyone who looks at a woman lustfully has already committed adultery with her in his heart.'
How about religions, Muslims to Christians, and Christians to Muslims? What kind of message was God trying to deliver to us through this thousand year long real life parable? Is it funny?!
Why this straight simple truth can be hidden from us for thousands of years. Who is hiding it, God or us?
But another question came to my mind: 'Why in the old testament, the scripture clearly stated that homosexual relationship was one of the worst sins?'
Bone
When God made Adam, he took a piece of rib from his side while he was sleeping, and made it his partner Eve. So Adam said:
"This is now bone of my bones
and flesh of my flesh;
she shall be called 'woman'
for she was taken out of man."
For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and they will become one flesh.
From that time, God left a hole on a man's chest. A man would felt emptiness from the hole near his heart. He would keep looking until he found his missing piece to cover it. That's the story of love and marriage.
God knows very well the ingredient of the love in this world. So when he was creating the son of man, he also made his partner out of his bone. But he made it so that it is impossible for them to match each other in the world of that time. But he filled the heart of the son of man with full of love, so that he would keep an open heart, full of love, forever.
So before the son of the man was going to be crucified, he talked with one of his apostles, the one who would betray him, and said:
"God’s plan is ready, and the Kingdom of heaven is coming, I am dedicated to be the seed of love to this world in order to save the world. But there is one thing I am worried about: after the gospel being spread among the nations, I am afraid the story of mine would be abused to carry the message of hatred: the hatred against Romans or Israelites from my followers, the hatred among the people of God to blame each other for the cause of my death.
The other suggested:
“If you are killed, I do not have interest to live in this world. I want to be the one who betray you. So that I can carry forever the hatred of those who love you. In that way, they could be easier to forgive others, and make your way straight and easier for them to follow!”
This was exactly the original plan of God, and his ingredient for the seed of love and forgiveness of the world.
From that time on God also changed a little bit of his way of creation, when he took the bone from the side of a man, he always cut off one corner of it, big or small, and cast it across the world, and make the rest his partner. Then after the man gets reunited with his partner, he will have some space in his heart for the rest of the world, and have a open mind.
"This is now bone of my bones
and flesh of my flesh;
she shall be called 'woman'
for she was taken out of man."
For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and they will become one flesh.
From that time, God left a hole on a man's chest. A man would felt emptiness from the hole near his heart. He would keep looking until he found his missing piece to cover it. That's the story of love and marriage.
God knows very well the ingredient of the love in this world. So when he was creating the son of man, he also made his partner out of his bone. But he made it so that it is impossible for them to match each other in the world of that time. But he filled the heart of the son of man with full of love, so that he would keep an open heart, full of love, forever.
So before the son of the man was going to be crucified, he talked with one of his apostles, the one who would betray him, and said:
"God’s plan is ready, and the Kingdom of heaven is coming, I am dedicated to be the seed of love to this world in order to save the world. But there is one thing I am worried about: after the gospel being spread among the nations, I am afraid the story of mine would be abused to carry the message of hatred: the hatred against Romans or Israelites from my followers, the hatred among the people of God to blame each other for the cause of my death.
The other suggested:
“If you are killed, I do not have interest to live in this world. I want to be the one who betray you. So that I can carry forever the hatred of those who love you. In that way, they could be easier to forgive others, and make your way straight and easier for them to follow!”
This was exactly the original plan of God, and his ingredient for the seed of love and forgiveness of the world.
From that time on God also changed a little bit of his way of creation, when he took the bone from the side of a man, he always cut off one corner of it, big or small, and cast it across the world, and make the rest his partner. Then after the man gets reunited with his partner, he will have some space in his heart for the rest of the world, and have a open mind.
Worries
We never, (or at least very rarely) use an old clothe to protect the new clothe from warring out. Because we know that way we would never enjoy the new clothe.
But we often worry too much about tomorrow such that we ruined today. Because of worrying we would never have chance to enjoy today.
Somebody said, the love of money is the root of evil. But Jesus never said that. Money does not have anything for people to love unless they make people feel that they could reduce their worries about tomorrow and make them feel safer.
It is the worry about tomorrow makes people addicted to money. But like other addictions such as addiction to alcohol or drugs, they could not help people live happier or becomes safer.
But they could turn our world into a horrible hell. Because of the worry of tomorrow, minority of people took control too much resource and space, so much that the rest could not even have enough food or a living place.
If you have a 2000 sq ft home, but for most of you time 1000 is enough, why change to a smaller one, so that other have a place to live? If working for 3 days a week could support your life, why not give out the other two days so that others have some chance to work.
The root of evil is just because people are worried about tomorrow. But does money help? How much worry could help.
That’s why Jesus never really condemn the love of money of people, instead he blame most on their worries about tomorrow. That’s his deep understanding of our mind, the foundation of his forgiveness.
But we often worry too much about tomorrow such that we ruined today. Because of worrying we would never have chance to enjoy today.
Somebody said, the love of money is the root of evil. But Jesus never said that. Money does not have anything for people to love unless they make people feel that they could reduce their worries about tomorrow and make them feel safer.
It is the worry about tomorrow makes people addicted to money. But like other addictions such as addiction to alcohol or drugs, they could not help people live happier or becomes safer.
But they could turn our world into a horrible hell. Because of the worry of tomorrow, minority of people took control too much resource and space, so much that the rest could not even have enough food or a living place.
If you have a 2000 sq ft home, but for most of you time 1000 is enough, why change to a smaller one, so that other have a place to live? If working for 3 days a week could support your life, why not give out the other two days so that others have some chance to work.
The root of evil is just because people are worried about tomorrow. But does money help? How much worry could help.
That’s why Jesus never really condemn the love of money of people, instead he blame most on their worries about tomorrow. That’s his deep understanding of our mind, the foundation of his forgiveness.
Understand
After looking at the construction of the English word "UNDERSTAND", I was amazed.
The word has two parts, "under" and "stand", mean "put in under my feet, and stand on top of it." How wonderful it is. You could only depend on something after you fully see the pros and cons of it. Walking in the muddy road, you only want to move your next step to a solid rock. Depends on something only after you fully know it, that is understand. Otherwise, for sure, you would in trouble, big trouble.
Twenty years ago, a friend of mine who was working as a truck driver told me, the first thing when you put your hand on a truck you never drove before is to speed up on an empty road, and then hit the brake as hard as possible. In that way, you will know how well its brake works. That's the first thing you must do to a truck new to you, as you don't want leave any chance for that to fail.
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But talking about Bible, how many of us is depending on it without fully understand the meaning of it. That's like standing on a piece of grass without knowing whether it's on top of a rock or mud.
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Talking about Jesus, how did he deal with it?
Everybody believe that the New Testament of Gospel is derived from the Old Testament. It's an extension of the plan and teaching of God.
Yes, I agree that Jesus built the gospel upon the Old Testament. But did he made use of every single piece of the Old Testament? How about the violence and blood bath of Israelites during the early history?
To Jesus, the Old Testament is a piece of land full of mud; upon it he built the foundation of the New Testament. But he only selectively picks the solid rocks as his support, because that's the thing he want, and that's enough. He did not take the whole testament and trap himself inside.
Apparently, the New Testament is not only meaningful to us by telling us the truth. It is more important by setting an example of establishing and exploring new truth and how to treat teachings that we don't really understand or agree.
But he doesn't fight with the mud, just leave them alone. Fighting does not really help.
How should we do then?
The word has two parts, "under" and "stand", mean "put in under my feet, and stand on top of it." How wonderful it is. You could only depend on something after you fully see the pros and cons of it. Walking in the muddy road, you only want to move your next step to a solid rock. Depends on something only after you fully know it, that is understand. Otherwise, for sure, you would in trouble, big trouble.
Twenty years ago, a friend of mine who was working as a truck driver told me, the first thing when you put your hand on a truck you never drove before is to speed up on an empty road, and then hit the brake as hard as possible. In that way, you will know how well its brake works. That's the first thing you must do to a truck new to you, as you don't want leave any chance for that to fail.
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But talking about Bible, how many of us is depending on it without fully understand the meaning of it. That's like standing on a piece of grass without knowing whether it's on top of a rock or mud.
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Talking about Jesus, how did he deal with it?
Everybody believe that the New Testament of Gospel is derived from the Old Testament. It's an extension of the plan and teaching of God.
Yes, I agree that Jesus built the gospel upon the Old Testament. But did he made use of every single piece of the Old Testament? How about the violence and blood bath of Israelites during the early history?
To Jesus, the Old Testament is a piece of land full of mud; upon it he built the foundation of the New Testament. But he only selectively picks the solid rocks as his support, because that's the thing he want, and that's enough. He did not take the whole testament and trap himself inside.
Apparently, the New Testament is not only meaningful to us by telling us the truth. It is more important by setting an example of establishing and exploring new truth and how to treat teachings that we don't really understand or agree.
But he doesn't fight with the mud, just leave them alone. Fighting does not really help.
How should we do then?
Lost sheep
Mathew 18:12-14
“What do you think? If a man owns a hundred sheep, and one of them wanders away, will he not leave the ninety-nine on the hills and go to look for the one that wandered off? And if he finds it, I tell you the truth, he is happier about that one sheep than about the ninety-nine that did not wander off. In the same way your father in heaven is not willing that any of these little ones should be lost”
看来， 家花不如野花香是从那时候开始的耶。谁不觉着她们都原本属于自己的呢？哈哈
“What do you think? If a man owns a hundred sheep, and one of them wanders away, will he not leave the ninety-nine on the hills and go to look for the one that wandered off? And if he finds it, I tell you the truth, he is happier about that one sheep than about the ninety-nine that did not wander off. In the same way your father in heaven is not willing that any of these little ones should be lost”
看来， 家花不如野花香是从那时候开始的耶。谁不觉着她们都原本属于自己的呢？哈哈
(Archive) The evolution of holly spirit.
One news item (in Chinese) from web caught my attention, and triggered some thinking about the evolution of "holly spirit" concept.
http://news.wenxuecity.com/messages/200906/news-gb2312-873714.html
Of course, the holly spirit concept itself never changed, I mean the evolution of my own perception of Holly Spirit.
When I first heard Christian teaching about Holly spirit, I was thinking holly spirit was something through miracle. Like the way the spirit symbolized by a dove entered Jesus' body after he got baptized. It’s some kind of special "spirit" with special power that came from God.
Later, when I read Genesis, when Adam and Eve ate the fruit, then they started to know evil from good, then I thought mind that tells good from evil must be the holly spirit. God has been putting the holly spirit in our body since the very beginning of our creation; but we were not able to appreciate it and actually use it to do our judgment.
More latter, I realized, knowing the good from evil does not really help much, if we do not behave accordingly. Then for a very long period, I have been thinking, God gave us instinct to distinguish good and evil, but holly spirit give us courage to stay with good and fight with evils that come from outside and inside. Holly spirit is something that turns our good thinking into actions.
Finally another question comes, is the instincts of our judgment of good and evil always right? A real evil man might have been thinking that what they were doing were right. Then according to the above theory they should have been following their “holly spirit”. Then Adolf Hitler will also have a lot of excuses to go to heaven. There must be something wrong. I am not totally against Adolf Hitler go to heaven, but that must come from mercy and forgiveness of God and other people, not in this way.
When reading the above posting, it reminded me of the prostitute that got saved from being stoned by Jesus. Stoning the prostitute was the law, do things according to the law must be a very righteous thing to do. But there are something else more important from Jesus than the law, but it could not be written in the law. That is love.
This is why Jesus said that he did not come here to destroy the law but to fulfill the law. The missing part in the law was love.
Love has more rich meaning than righteousness.
But why when Jesus remind people about the unseen part, people actually followed. This was not because Jesus had the supper power to control people’s mind. (He might had the power, but I doubt he actually used it.)
The reason is that the spirit of love is already planted by our creator deep in our mind. We just did not realize it. That is like the mustard seed talked in the Gospel. Jesus came here gave us sunshine and water, so that it started to grow. He knew our seeds better than ourselves because he came from God.
So holly spirit is something about love. It has more content than righteousness. It's the mind of caring about others but not only ourselves. It reminds us to make the right choice when we are in the party privileged. Even when it seems like the privilege is from the law by God.
So when the land of Israel was first given to Israelite, sure everything was from God's will. (At least they believed so at that moment.) Did that mean they had the right to take the unmarried girls and kill all the men, boys and married women? Their sin was because they only saw the law but had forgotten love.
In the story mentioned in the Gospel, when people caught that prostitute, for sure they could stone her. That was the law, but the law was not everything.
When I read the paper mentioned at the very beginning, I deeply felt guilty for our privileges we got in this world from God. I was deeply impressed by the story told through the Gospel from Jesus.
Another story, I remember one year after Virginia shooting at VT, people built a monument to memorize the dead. Among the names appeared on the wall, the killer's name was also listed. And people actually even put flowers there. At the moment, I was thinking, if he could see this scene from somewhere, he might want to redo his video again to confess his sin.
Indeed the killer should be punished and condemned, but us, as normal people, should the tragedy trigger some thinking inside of ourselves. Sure all the victims in the shooting were innocent, but at least they have been happy during their (short) lifetime in this world. But look at this poor little Korean boy, I doubt he ever had one day of happiness during his childhood. Whose fault was it after all?
Love means caring for others. Love means understanding and forgiving. Love makes us rethink about what to do when we think God blessed us (for what). Love gives the power to forgive when the law says punishing.
God sowed a tiny seed inside our mind. But we never cared about it, and we never noticed it. It’s like a mustard seed hide deep inside the soil.
Jesus’ teaching is like shower and sunshine, with the Gospel teaching the seed start to grow. Finally it blossom into a beautiful flower.
The flower is so beautiful that I said to myself: it does not belong to me, but my whole body, everything from me, have to belong to her.
It is indeed beautiful experience, but which part of this process should be called Holly Spirit. I really cannot tell.
Who cares!
http://news.wenxuecity.com/messages/200906/news-gb2312-873714.html
Of course, the holly spirit concept itself never changed, I mean the evolution of my own perception of Holly Spirit.
When I first heard Christian teaching about Holly spirit, I was thinking holly spirit was something through miracle. Like the way the spirit symbolized by a dove entered Jesus' body after he got baptized. It’s some kind of special "spirit" with special power that came from God.
Later, when I read Genesis, when Adam and Eve ate the fruit, then they started to know evil from good, then I thought mind that tells good from evil must be the holly spirit. God has been putting the holly spirit in our body since the very beginning of our creation; but we were not able to appreciate it and actually use it to do our judgment.
More latter, I realized, knowing the good from evil does not really help much, if we do not behave accordingly. Then for a very long period, I have been thinking, God gave us instinct to distinguish good and evil, but holly spirit give us courage to stay with good and fight with evils that come from outside and inside. Holly spirit is something that turns our good thinking into actions.
Finally another question comes, is the instincts of our judgment of good and evil always right? A real evil man might have been thinking that what they were doing were right. Then according to the above theory they should have been following their “holly spirit”. Then Adolf Hitler will also have a lot of excuses to go to heaven. There must be something wrong. I am not totally against Adolf Hitler go to heaven, but that must come from mercy and forgiveness of God and other people, not in this way.
When reading the above posting, it reminded me of the prostitute that got saved from being stoned by Jesus. Stoning the prostitute was the law, do things according to the law must be a very righteous thing to do. But there are something else more important from Jesus than the law, but it could not be written in the law. That is love.
This is why Jesus said that he did not come here to destroy the law but to fulfill the law. The missing part in the law was love.
Love has more rich meaning than righteousness.
But why when Jesus remind people about the unseen part, people actually followed. This was not because Jesus had the supper power to control people’s mind. (He might had the power, but I doubt he actually used it.)
The reason is that the spirit of love is already planted by our creator deep in our mind. We just did not realize it. That is like the mustard seed talked in the Gospel. Jesus came here gave us sunshine and water, so that it started to grow. He knew our seeds better than ourselves because he came from God.
So holly spirit is something about love. It has more content than righteousness. It's the mind of caring about others but not only ourselves. It reminds us to make the right choice when we are in the party privileged. Even when it seems like the privilege is from the law by God.
So when the land of Israel was first given to Israelite, sure everything was from God's will. (At least they believed so at that moment.) Did that mean they had the right to take the unmarried girls and kill all the men, boys and married women? Their sin was because they only saw the law but had forgotten love.
In the story mentioned in the Gospel, when people caught that prostitute, for sure they could stone her. That was the law, but the law was not everything.
When I read the paper mentioned at the very beginning, I deeply felt guilty for our privileges we got in this world from God. I was deeply impressed by the story told through the Gospel from Jesus.
Another story, I remember one year after Virginia shooting at VT, people built a monument to memorize the dead. Among the names appeared on the wall, the killer's name was also listed. And people actually even put flowers there. At the moment, I was thinking, if he could see this scene from somewhere, he might want to redo his video again to confess his sin.
Indeed the killer should be punished and condemned, but us, as normal people, should the tragedy trigger some thinking inside of ourselves. Sure all the victims in the shooting were innocent, but at least they have been happy during their (short) lifetime in this world. But look at this poor little Korean boy, I doubt he ever had one day of happiness during his childhood. Whose fault was it after all?
Love means caring for others. Love means understanding and forgiving. Love makes us rethink about what to do when we think God blessed us (for what). Love gives the power to forgive when the law says punishing.
God sowed a tiny seed inside our mind. But we never cared about it, and we never noticed it. It’s like a mustard seed hide deep inside the soil.
Jesus’ teaching is like shower and sunshine, with the Gospel teaching the seed start to grow. Finally it blossom into a beautiful flower.
The flower is so beautiful that I said to myself: it does not belong to me, but my whole body, everything from me, have to belong to her.
It is indeed beautiful experience, but which part of this process should be called Holly Spirit. I really cannot tell.
Who cares!
(Archive) The Evolution Of the World Religions and Christianity
Vision 1:
At the beginning, the world was full of mystery and unknowns, like the water body of a great lake;
God the creator was its bank. Our ancestors were swimmers in the lake, in their eyes, everything was darkness and unknown. They don't have enough knowledge and intelligent to look throw the unknowns and see God, or even understand the water. They were so scared like a swimmer in a big lake.
They were created with a mind and spirit to feel loneliness, horror and their own desire for love. In front of the great nature filled with water of unknowns, everything was more powerful than them selves. Without faith, they would see no hope, only loneliness, horror and suffering.
Vision 2:
God wanted to show mercy and give guidence to people. Through some hints he gave, he helped people build some faith to support themselves. This way people felt stronger when facing greater, stronger enemies around them, even death.
This was like woods casted into the water surface of the lake. So that people can cling to them when they felt tired and weak.
Vision 3:
As people grew in their intelligence, they collect those floating woods to build bigger boats. (God helped them.) People were better organized through religions, this was the coming of various religions.
Religions were good, as they help people to be more organized. When swimmers see those boats they feel safer there. And they preferred to stay there and didn't want to go back to swim in the water (of unknowns) again.
But religions also created some problems: on different boats lived different people. They all took their own boat as homes, it's their "bank" of dry land comparing to the dangerous lake. Although they didn't see the real bank to the great lake yet, and they prefer not realize there home was just a boat.
So when there two boats came together, people on them would fight with each other. "My boat is the real bank of dry land to support the water, yours is just a floating wood, it will sink soon!"
But they didn't know, underneath all of them were both just boats.
But still the arguments between them were great. This even caused violence, great violence. The violence was even worse than when all of their ancestors were swimming in the endless lake water.
So sometimes God thought, "it might have been better if these boats did not exist at all."
Vision 4:
So God sent Jesus to the world with Christianity.
Christianity was not a boat, it was not sent to to world as a religion at first place. It was a methodology for people from different background and nations and religions to deal with each other and live together. As then center piece of Christianity was to love your enemy. It was sent to world to full fill the law will love, to chain different religions with the chain of solid faith. It was the religion of religions.
It's like a pre-build framework in order for every boat to have a docking station. And they could happily deal with each other without the damaging great violence.
This came from the great sacrifice of Jesus Christ and love of God.
Vision 5:
But people did not see it. Either from inside and outside of Christianity.
Outside of Christianity, they still shouted: "Ours is the real bank, Christianity is just another boat, it will sink sooner or later also."
Inside of Christianity, they gradually lost the origin meaning of Christianity within the first couple hundred years. they destroyed the pre-build deck for other boats to harbor. Took those outsiders violently. Christianity really became another religion, a boat floating on the water surface of the great lake. The lake of unknowns without the access to God and his love.
Another boat, another religion. As blindness as other to the solid truth.
Vision 6:
As human being growing their knowledge and intelligence, there grew out the the modern science and technology.
This is like swimmers in the water gained advanced equipments and telescopes to explore water and everywhere. This is what those swimmers found: all the banks people claims to be in-sinkable are just boats floating on the surface of the water. As a matter of fact, there are no bank of solid land to support the water at all, "Otherwise, why we could not see it even after we explore through all the water thoroughly and systematically?"
It is the water supporting the "banks", rather than some solid land supporting the water. Everything is just floating boat, only the water is in-sinkable.
These convinced a lot of people originally taking their boats as land and in-sinkable home. They blame the boats are the reason of various violence. And jump into water to become swimmers, science believers.
As people could understand the water now, it's not unknown and mysterious to them any more. "Being free from religion is great!" they think!
But people staying with their boat still stays there. Their feelings keep telling them, "there must be some dry land as our home, and this is it."
For the people prefer to swim in the water, where they feel safer rather than the boat. The water is their real boat.
I would say, modern science is just another religion. It has its own limits, just people inside of it cannot see them. They thought modern science could explain everything.
But indeed, it is just another boat. But why it does not sink and seems like in-sinkable. Because God made it so.
Vision 7:
Although the situations in the modern world seem to be in chaos. Everything indeed is just a fallacy, one way or the other. Every religion is a fallacy, if you take it a religion. Modern science is another fallacy, just God made it so that it does not look like a fallacy but a system of solid truth (Maybe it is indeed solid truth if looked from that way.).
But this is made by God in purpose, so that the people can explore the real meaning of love, the real meaning of Christianity.
Through these Chaos, people in the world will more clearly see through the truth behind every religions and modern science. Understand the real meaning and purpose of the creation of the world and all the religions and Christianity from God.
The real Christianity will be restored, the flower of love will blossom. People from everywhere will stand together and love each other, regardless of their difference in religious background and nationality.
Through which we will rebuild the frame work of docking stations, every boat of religion will find it's safe home and peacefully live with its neighbors. That's the real meaning of Christianity. True Christianity is not a religion any way.
Eventually, there will come this giant boat through chaining all the religions, nations, people with various background together through the spirit of love, the spirit of Christianity.
Yes, the whole world is all water without a dry land, but throughout Christianity, we will build our own land ourselves.
That's the Kingdom of God and return of Jesus Christ. That's the bank, the bank of love, the eternal home of human beings from the grace of our creator, our loving God.
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If you ask me why I have said that modern science is also a fallacy. Please rethink about it after read the following statement.
Every single discipline in the modern science all depends on one single assumption to build their whole system of laws, theories and methodologies. This assumption is:
If we observe some phenomena in the lab and prove it to be consistently reproducible, then given the same condition, the same phenomena will ever and has been always happen(ed) repeatedly any time in the past and future.
If this assumption does not hold, no law in any scientific field would be able to stand any more.
By taking a counter example: it has been widely agreed among all the scientist in the world, (it has been almost taken as a solid truth), that at the very beginning the universe, during the first fraction of second, 2/3 of the mass of the Universe were generated from nothing. This tells us that the most principle physical law in the world today does not hold at that moment. (the total amount of energy and mass does not increase or decrease, but only transform from one form to another.)
What does this fact tell us: the very critical assumption I previously mentioned that all the modern science build upon are false. Thus we might be able to say that all the modern sciences are fallacies.
But actually they are not fallacy because of one reason. Because these scientific laws are all created by God. All these laws stand because God made them so. God made them this way so that we could learn from it and depend on it for our living. Just as we give our children toys to play with so that they could gain their skills.
These scientific laws will not be fallacies as long as God let them hold and we human beings still need them. But they will turn into fallacies if we deny God because of the existence of these scientific laws.
Someday, those scientific laws might stop working. But even then, we don't need worry about that if we have faith on God. Because God loves us, he must stop these laws because he found us a better eternity.
When Jesus said that he came to the world not to break the law but to full fill the laws. The term "law" must have some more generic meaning than the ten commentments from Moses.
If he also refering to those scientific laws, then: Chrisitianity is not for breaking those laws in the scientific field, instead, Christianity is here to fulfill these scientific laws. Fulfill them with love and faith upon God, which by the nature of natural science, does not come within the scietific laws, theories and methodologies themselves.
At the beginning, the world was full of mystery and unknowns, like the water body of a great lake;
God the creator was its bank. Our ancestors were swimmers in the lake, in their eyes, everything was darkness and unknown. They don't have enough knowledge and intelligent to look throw the unknowns and see God, or even understand the water. They were so scared like a swimmer in a big lake.
They were created with a mind and spirit to feel loneliness, horror and their own desire for love. In front of the great nature filled with water of unknowns, everything was more powerful than them selves. Without faith, they would see no hope, only loneliness, horror and suffering.
Vision 2:
God wanted to show mercy and give guidence to people. Through some hints he gave, he helped people build some faith to support themselves. This way people felt stronger when facing greater, stronger enemies around them, even death.
This was like woods casted into the water surface of the lake. So that people can cling to them when they felt tired and weak.
Vision 3:
As people grew in their intelligence, they collect those floating woods to build bigger boats. (God helped them.) People were better organized through religions, this was the coming of various religions.
Religions were good, as they help people to be more organized. When swimmers see those boats they feel safer there. And they preferred to stay there and didn't want to go back to swim in the water (of unknowns) again.
But religions also created some problems: on different boats lived different people. They all took their own boat as homes, it's their "bank" of dry land comparing to the dangerous lake. Although they didn't see the real bank to the great lake yet, and they prefer not realize there home was just a boat.
So when there two boats came together, people on them would fight with each other. "My boat is the real bank of dry land to support the water, yours is just a floating wood, it will sink soon!"
But they didn't know, underneath all of them were both just boats.
But still the arguments between them were great. This even caused violence, great violence. The violence was even worse than when all of their ancestors were swimming in the endless lake water.
So sometimes God thought, "it might have been better if these boats did not exist at all."
Vision 4:
So God sent Jesus to the world with Christianity.
Christianity was not a boat, it was not sent to to world as a religion at first place. It was a methodology for people from different background and nations and religions to deal with each other and live together. As then center piece of Christianity was to love your enemy. It was sent to world to full fill the law will love, to chain different religions with the chain of solid faith. It was the religion of religions.
It's like a pre-build framework in order for every boat to have a docking station. And they could happily deal with each other without the damaging great violence.
This came from the great sacrifice of Jesus Christ and love of God.
Vision 5:
But people did not see it. Either from inside and outside of Christianity.
Outside of Christianity, they still shouted: "Ours is the real bank, Christianity is just another boat, it will sink sooner or later also."
Inside of Christianity, they gradually lost the origin meaning of Christianity within the first couple hundred years. they destroyed the pre-build deck for other boats to harbor. Took those outsiders violently. Christianity really became another religion, a boat floating on the water surface of the great lake. The lake of unknowns without the access to God and his love.
Another boat, another religion. As blindness as other to the solid truth.
Vision 6:
As human being growing their knowledge and intelligence, there grew out the the modern science and technology.
This is like swimmers in the water gained advanced equipments and telescopes to explore water and everywhere. This is what those swimmers found: all the banks people claims to be in-sinkable are just boats floating on the surface of the water. As a matter of fact, there are no bank of solid land to support the water at all, "Otherwise, why we could not see it even after we explore through all the water thoroughly and systematically?"
It is the water supporting the "banks", rather than some solid land supporting the water. Everything is just floating boat, only the water is in-sinkable.
These convinced a lot of people originally taking their boats as land and in-sinkable home. They blame the boats are the reason of various violence. And jump into water to become swimmers, science believers.
As people could understand the water now, it's not unknown and mysterious to them any more. "Being free from religion is great!" they think!
But people staying with their boat still stays there. Their feelings keep telling them, "there must be some dry land as our home, and this is it."
For the people prefer to swim in the water, where they feel safer rather than the boat. The water is their real boat.
I would say, modern science is just another religion. It has its own limits, just people inside of it cannot see them. They thought modern science could explain everything.
But indeed, it is just another boat. But why it does not sink and seems like in-sinkable. Because God made it so.
Vision 7:
Although the situations in the modern world seem to be in chaos. Everything indeed is just a fallacy, one way or the other. Every religion is a fallacy, if you take it a religion. Modern science is another fallacy, just God made it so that it does not look like a fallacy but a system of solid truth (Maybe it is indeed solid truth if looked from that way.).
But this is made by God in purpose, so that the people can explore the real meaning of love, the real meaning of Christianity.
Through these Chaos, people in the world will more clearly see through the truth behind every religions and modern science. Understand the real meaning and purpose of the creation of the world and all the religions and Christianity from God.
The real Christianity will be restored, the flower of love will blossom. People from everywhere will stand together and love each other, regardless of their difference in religious background and nationality.
Through which we will rebuild the frame work of docking stations, every boat of religion will find it's safe home and peacefully live with its neighbors. That's the real meaning of Christianity. True Christianity is not a religion any way.
Eventually, there will come this giant boat through chaining all the religions, nations, people with various background together through the spirit of love, the spirit of Christianity.
Yes, the whole world is all water without a dry land, but throughout Christianity, we will build our own land ourselves.
That's the Kingdom of God and return of Jesus Christ. That's the bank, the bank of love, the eternal home of human beings from the grace of our creator, our loving God.
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If you ask me why I have said that modern science is also a fallacy. Please rethink about it after read the following statement.
Every single discipline in the modern science all depends on one single assumption to build their whole system of laws, theories and methodologies. This assumption is:
If we observe some phenomena in the lab and prove it to be consistently reproducible, then given the same condition, the same phenomena will ever and has been always happen(ed) repeatedly any time in the past and future.
If this assumption does not hold, no law in any scientific field would be able to stand any more.
By taking a counter example: it has been widely agreed among all the scientist in the world, (it has been almost taken as a solid truth), that at the very beginning the universe, during the first fraction of second, 2/3 of the mass of the Universe were generated from nothing. This tells us that the most principle physical law in the world today does not hold at that moment. (the total amount of energy and mass does not increase or decrease, but only transform from one form to another.)
What does this fact tell us: the very critical assumption I previously mentioned that all the modern science build upon are false. Thus we might be able to say that all the modern sciences are fallacies.
But actually they are not fallacy because of one reason. Because these scientific laws are all created by God. All these laws stand because God made them so. God made them this way so that we could learn from it and depend on it for our living. Just as we give our children toys to play with so that they could gain their skills.
These scientific laws will not be fallacies as long as God let them hold and we human beings still need them. But they will turn into fallacies if we deny God because of the existence of these scientific laws.
Someday, those scientific laws might stop working. But even then, we don't need worry about that if we have faith on God. Because God loves us, he must stop these laws because he found us a better eternity.
When Jesus said that he came to the world not to break the law but to full fill the laws. The term "law" must have some more generic meaning than the ten commentments from Moses.
If he also refering to those scientific laws, then: Chrisitianity is not for breaking those laws in the scientific field, instead, Christianity is here to fulfill these scientific laws. Fulfill them with love and faith upon God, which by the nature of natural science, does not come within the scietific laws, theories and methodologies themselves.
Infinite Power
There are infinite number of points on a piece of paper, but that does not mean that piece of paper could cover the whole world, or even the points from another piece of paper.
God has infinite power, that doesn't mean God has the knowledge to know everything or capability to do anything he want to do.
If he has the power to have the full control of the time axis (like some legend story in some animation films), he did not have to be "grieved that he had made man on the earth", and "filled his heart with pain." So much that he had to wipe out mankind with the flood. (Genesis 6:5-7). He could just simply travel back through the time tunnel to the beginning and fix the flaws and come back and enjoy.
It is very likely that he does not remember the beginning moment of his own life, unless somebody told him. Or he might have got some clue on how he came to life by guessing, but he could never be 100% sure how that happened.
Most likely, he is not really sure he would one day, like everyone else of us, pass away. The only thing he knew is that everything got created and go to destruction in some way some day. Although he think he has the eternal life, but how can he be 100% sure about it. Who can give him a proof? Himself? How?
Although, God has infinite power, but that does not his power can cover everything he intended to do. Is it possible for him to give us happiness without the suffering, I guess the only answer is, he want to do that, but he could not.
God has infinite power, but there is something that even God does not have the power to do, or he need to figure out the way to do it. Through learning, learning from himself, or the human beings, his creation.
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So it is the sciene, when at the earlier stage, we saw science grow and explore new knowledge in a rapid stage, withing couple handreds of years, it almost covered all the areas of unknowns we human beings could possibly imagine.
At that moment, everybody believes that science has infinite power, and soon, it would be powerful enough to answer us every question we want to ask.
But it turned out, science has its own limits, and as the boundary expands, we only found out to be faced with more unknowns.
As everything about science is about observation, experiment, evidence and proof, it sets its own limitation.
As the principle law of physics, it must cost some energy in order to observe any phenomena. Natural science cannot really look much deeper beyond nuclear level. As the energy on that level could not split any more, impossible for scientist to observe. The only way to explore them is guessing, congestion and imagination. But how far you can go in that way, how can you convince me your theory is right.
On the other end, natural science limits its power by the speed of light. Regardless the advancement of science and technology, we can only be able to reach a very tiny part of the Universe (roughly 1000 light year v.s. 168 billion years) . Anything else that beyond that limit is just through derivation and congestion.
So if you tell me the Universe is 10 billion years old, how can you convince me. If you tell me the Universe will one day collapse, and right now it is in its middle age of life span, why do I believe you?
Maybe it has already started to collapse at some point but you never have a change to observe it. But the boundary of the collapse can only travel at the light speed, and the big bang is still expanding the boundary of Universe at the same speed, then it would never catch up. So who cares?
So in some sense, science has its limited power. And it can be taken just as another religion; it also needs our faith to believe. At the frontier of science, everything also accounts to rational imagination and congestion; at least, not everything is solid. If it’s just plain fact that everyone could observe and prove, why we need science?
God has infinite power, that doesn't mean God has the knowledge to know everything or capability to do anything he want to do.
If he has the power to have the full control of the time axis (like some legend story in some animation films), he did not have to be "grieved that he had made man on the earth", and "filled his heart with pain." So much that he had to wipe out mankind with the flood. (Genesis 6:5-7). He could just simply travel back through the time tunnel to the beginning and fix the flaws and come back and enjoy.
It is very likely that he does not remember the beginning moment of his own life, unless somebody told him. Or he might have got some clue on how he came to life by guessing, but he could never be 100% sure how that happened.
Most likely, he is not really sure he would one day, like everyone else of us, pass away. The only thing he knew is that everything got created and go to destruction in some way some day. Although he think he has the eternal life, but how can he be 100% sure about it. Who can give him a proof? Himself? How?
Although, God has infinite power, but that does not his power can cover everything he intended to do. Is it possible for him to give us happiness without the suffering, I guess the only answer is, he want to do that, but he could not.
God has infinite power, but there is something that even God does not have the power to do, or he need to figure out the way to do it. Through learning, learning from himself, or the human beings, his creation.
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So it is the sciene, when at the earlier stage, we saw science grow and explore new knowledge in a rapid stage, withing couple handreds of years, it almost covered all the areas of unknowns we human beings could possibly imagine.
At that moment, everybody believes that science has infinite power, and soon, it would be powerful enough to answer us every question we want to ask.
But it turned out, science has its own limits, and as the boundary expands, we only found out to be faced with more unknowns.
As everything about science is about observation, experiment, evidence and proof, it sets its own limitation.
As the principle law of physics, it must cost some energy in order to observe any phenomena. Natural science cannot really look much deeper beyond nuclear level. As the energy on that level could not split any more, impossible for scientist to observe. The only way to explore them is guessing, congestion and imagination. But how far you can go in that way, how can you convince me your theory is right.
On the other end, natural science limits its power by the speed of light. Regardless the advancement of science and technology, we can only be able to reach a very tiny part of the Universe (roughly 1000 light year v.s. 168 billion years) . Anything else that beyond that limit is just through derivation and congestion.
So if you tell me the Universe is 10 billion years old, how can you convince me. If you tell me the Universe will one day collapse, and right now it is in its middle age of life span, why do I believe you?
Maybe it has already started to collapse at some point but you never have a change to observe it. But the boundary of the collapse can only travel at the light speed, and the big bang is still expanding the boundary of Universe at the same speed, then it would never catch up. So who cares?
So in some sense, science has its limited power. And it can be taken just as another religion; it also needs our faith to believe. At the frontier of science, everything also accounts to rational imagination and congestion; at least, not everything is solid. If it’s just plain fact that everyone could observe and prove, why we need science?
Flying dove
Set you mind as if setting a dove to fly in a storm, there is strong wind pushing from both the left wing and right wing;
The wind from left wing is always telling: "See, God does not exist! ", "or God does not love you at all",
The wind from right wing always tells you: "Close your eyes, pretend you did not see anything, just simply obey." "because, that the way God wanted you to be."
It's easy if you stop flapping your wings, and simply follow the wind either from left, or right.
But there is the middle way, we need keep flying and balance between the wind from left and right. That's the art of flying. And that's what makes our life more interesting and challenging.
Otherwise, why God give you two wings, instead of made you just out of a balloon.
The wind from left wing is always telling: "See, God does not exist! ", "or God does not love you at all",
The wind from right wing always tells you: "Close your eyes, pretend you did not see anything, just simply obey." "because, that the way God wanted you to be."
It's easy if you stop flapping your wings, and simply follow the wind either from left, or right.
But there is the middle way, we need keep flying and balance between the wind from left and right. That's the art of flying. And that's what makes our life more interesting and challenging.
Otherwise, why God give you two wings, instead of made you just out of a balloon.
Plan B
When humble goes to extreme, one will be able to appear extreme proud.
When pride goes to extreme, one could also behave extremely humble.
All it takes is love.
That's why Jesus was willing to take the shoes off the servants, kneel down and wash out their feet.
But at the same time, he was also the same one, who shrug off whatever fall on him from the top religious authority or even the king. And claim himself to be the king of the heaven and earth.
All it took was love. As his love doesn't have boundary.
When love goes extreme, it can hold anything.
Love made him powerful, to be able to hold hatred, torture, crucification with peaceful smile. Love made him able to take all these suffering with great joy.
So there was a plan B!
When God made the plan for the great future of love and freedom for our human beings, even himself was not 100% confident of himself.
That did not mean he did not have enough faith. The two thousand years of hard work and patience is the best proof of his faith.
But still, even him, was not 100% confident on whatever he was trying to do was achievable.
So there was plan B!
What if after every efforts from God, but it only turned out that there would no formula to combine freedom, peace and hapiness together,
If the cost of freedom only means endless suffering, violence and agony of our human race, ...
Then God would send Jesus:
"And Jesus would say, let me be, the king of the heaven and earth, and give me all the power to rein.
"And give us eternal life, let love freeze and make memory last.
"If that's the only formula for the Love of God to be enjoyed.
But what kind of glory it is. When one sees all the ones he loved, must be kept with a turtle shell.
As the only way keep them away from violence is to give them each a turtle shell.
But if there are no other choice, that would the cost of love.
Then Jesus be sent:
Let me be the turtle shell to human beings.
The most glorious, but indeed would be deep suffering of love. Said Jesus, let me be!
Luckily, we didn't go to plan B.
As the Jesus's blood have been paid back, and the holly spirit has flourished. The kingdom of God is comming,
Not in the form of plan B, but as the best expectation of God, we accomplished successfully with plan A.
Authough it was with the great cost of suffering and sacrifice of Jesus, and many many.
Although it took God doubled patience of waiting, tripled effort of hard working, to the best expectation of God, his kingdom is coming.
Like the little mermaid in the great tale,
Would Jesus, watching his beloved ones live happily ever after, ...
vanish and become a buble of sea in the sunshine of early morning?
But what a sea is that? billions of people he has ever loved, and given life to! live happily ever after.
What a bubble is that? love and enjoy the beautiful word with every one together!
Breathing the fresh air of every morning, singing in the sunshine without worry and suffering,
What kind of joy can be comparable to this?
That is really the greatest reward he could ever hope, from his love and the love of God.
Even if nobody could know who he is, and where he goes.
That is my understanding of the great confliction in the double sided personality of Jesus Christ. Both are from great love. It is the greatest of all, no matter it ends up with plan A or plan B.
The other confiliction comes from the difference between the reality and the bible description, one appreciate democracy, but the other is pointing to exactly the opposite direction on that sense. That was actually the division between Plan A and Plan B, both of which actually come from God.
When pride goes to extreme, one could also behave extremely humble.
All it takes is love.
That's why Jesus was willing to take the shoes off the servants, kneel down and wash out their feet.
But at the same time, he was also the same one, who shrug off whatever fall on him from the top religious authority or even the king. And claim himself to be the king of the heaven and earth.
All it took was love. As his love doesn't have boundary.
When love goes extreme, it can hold anything.
Love made him powerful, to be able to hold hatred, torture, crucification with peaceful smile. Love made him able to take all these suffering with great joy.
So there was a plan B!
When God made the plan for the great future of love and freedom for our human beings, even himself was not 100% confident of himself.
That did not mean he did not have enough faith. The two thousand years of hard work and patience is the best proof of his faith.
But still, even him, was not 100% confident on whatever he was trying to do was achievable.
So there was plan B!
What if after every efforts from God, but it only turned out that there would no formula to combine freedom, peace and hapiness together,
If the cost of freedom only means endless suffering, violence and agony of our human race, ...
Then God would send Jesus:
"And Jesus would say, let me be, the king of the heaven and earth, and give me all the power to rein.
"And give us eternal life, let love freeze and make memory last.
"If that's the only formula for the Love of God to be enjoyed.
But what kind of glory it is. When one sees all the ones he loved, must be kept with a turtle shell.
As the only way keep them away from violence is to give them each a turtle shell.
But if there are no other choice, that would the cost of love.
Then Jesus be sent:
Let me be the turtle shell to human beings.
The most glorious, but indeed would be deep suffering of love. Said Jesus, let me be!
Luckily, we didn't go to plan B.
As the Jesus's blood have been paid back, and the holly spirit has flourished. The kingdom of God is comming,
Not in the form of plan B, but as the best expectation of God, we accomplished successfully with plan A.
Authough it was with the great cost of suffering and sacrifice of Jesus, and many many.
Although it took God doubled patience of waiting, tripled effort of hard working, to the best expectation of God, his kingdom is coming.
Like the little mermaid in the great tale,
Would Jesus, watching his beloved ones live happily ever after, ...
vanish and become a buble of sea in the sunshine of early morning?
But what a sea is that? billions of people he has ever loved, and given life to! live happily ever after.
What a bubble is that? love and enjoy the beautiful word with every one together!
Breathing the fresh air of every morning, singing in the sunshine without worry and suffering,
What kind of joy can be comparable to this?
That is really the greatest reward he could ever hope, from his love and the love of God.
Even if nobody could know who he is, and where he goes.
That is my understanding of the great confliction in the double sided personality of Jesus Christ. Both are from great love. It is the greatest of all, no matter it ends up with plan A or plan B.
The other confiliction comes from the difference between the reality and the bible description, one appreciate democracy, but the other is pointing to exactly the opposite direction on that sense. That was actually the division between Plan A and Plan B, both of which actually come from God.
Right to forgive sins.
At today's service, when we ware in Lord's prayer, I got some inspiration from it.
Mark (2:3-7)
Some men came, bringing to him a paralytic, carried by four of them. Since they could not get him to Jesus because of the crowd, they made an opening in the roof above Jesus and, after digging through it, lowered the mat the paralyzed man was lying on. When Jesus saw their faith, he said to the paralytic, "Son, your sins are forgiven."
Now some teachers of the law were sitting there, thinking to themselves, "Why does this fellow talk like that? He's blaspheming! Who can forgive sins but God alone?"
Is our lord the only one have the authority to forgive sins. Everyone have sinned, and we sinned to each other.
We should ask everyone that we sinned against to forgive us. And we should also remember to forgive every one.
If everyone we sinned have forgiven us, we are sure would be forgiven by God. So everyone have the authority to forgive sins. Just do it if you can, if you cannot, make some effort to do it.
So don't just ask forgiveness from God, break the cycle from ourselves.
When Jesus said your sins have been forgiven, he was not speaking only to the person who was listening. He was speaking to all his believers.
Mark (2:3-7)
Some men came, bringing to him a paralytic, carried by four of them. Since they could not get him to Jesus because of the crowd, they made an opening in the roof above Jesus and, after digging through it, lowered the mat the paralyzed man was lying on. When Jesus saw their faith, he said to the paralytic, "Son, your sins are forgiven."
Now some teachers of the law were sitting there, thinking to themselves, "Why does this fellow talk like that? He's blaspheming! Who can forgive sins but God alone?"
Is our lord the only one have the authority to forgive sins. Everyone have sinned, and we sinned to each other.
We should ask everyone that we sinned against to forgive us. And we should also remember to forgive every one.
If everyone we sinned have forgiven us, we are sure would be forgiven by God. So everyone have the authority to forgive sins. Just do it if you can, if you cannot, make some effort to do it.
So don't just ask forgiveness from God, break the cycle from ourselves.
When Jesus said your sins have been forgiven, he was not speaking only to the person who was listening. He was speaking to all his believers.
What's in the left hand of God (a second thought)
Jesus is sitting in the right hand of God!
Left, or right hand, or to be hold between two hands, why such non important subtle detail so important, worth to be repeated by billions of people again and again?
What is in the left hand of God then?
Actually, the other side of God does not necessary to be left, it could be simply, wrong!
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* If it's necessary, don't you think God has the power and patient to design the meaning of every word from English or any other language? If it's a coincident, don't you think God could make that coincident happen, if it is about a very important hint? That's about it!
Left, or right hand, or to be hold between two hands, why such non important subtle detail so important, worth to be repeated by billions of people again and again?
What is in the left hand of God then?
Actually, the other side of God does not necessary to be left, it could be simply, wrong!
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* If it's necessary, don't you think God has the power and patient to design the meaning of every word from English or any other language? If it's a coincident, don't you think God could make that coincident happen, if it is about a very important hint? That's about it!
What's in the left hand of God
A while ago, I noticed a book in the library titled "the left hand of God". Inside of the book listed various facts about tragedies and violence caused by religious conflicts, which include quite some from christian churches in the history.
I did not want to read the book, not because I don't agree with the author. By reading the title and glimpse through couple of pictures I already agreed a lot on the view point of him. The facts listed in the book were not deniable, any way.
But there are more truth than straight forward simple fact list. I don't like the conclusion he draw from those facts. We should not deny God, or faith on his love because of those fact.
Then how should we look at these? In stead of trying to explain my opinion by throwing a lot of words here. I'd like to simply give my conclusion, give you the chance to make the judgment and the rest of the thinking.
What is behind the left hand of God?
God has two hands, left hand to split the people and make them different. The right hand works to mix them together so that they like each other. (Not make them looks alike, but to love and appreciate each other.)
Looks like the left hand and right hand are fighting each other, but they serve one purpose together: teaching us that the difference between us on color race, religious belief are not the reason to fight each other but to appreciate each other.
What hint was God trying to give us when he made the partner Eve to be a female instead of making them identical twin.
If God make us all identical and give us eternal life and let them into the kingdom of heaven. What kind of life will they live? To die, to stop thinking? How if their mind get divided again?
There is only one solution, we should accept or even appreciate our difference between each other. That's why God made his creation in great variation and this is the reason our life becomes so colorful.
Thanks to God!
I did not want to read the book, not because I don't agree with the author. By reading the title and glimpse through couple of pictures I already agreed a lot on the view point of him. The facts listed in the book were not deniable, any way.
But there are more truth than straight forward simple fact list. I don't like the conclusion he draw from those facts. We should not deny God, or faith on his love because of those fact.
Then how should we look at these? In stead of trying to explain my opinion by throwing a lot of words here. I'd like to simply give my conclusion, give you the chance to make the judgment and the rest of the thinking.
What is behind the left hand of God?
God has two hands, left hand to split the people and make them different. The right hand works to mix them together so that they like each other. (Not make them looks alike, but to love and appreciate each other.)
Looks like the left hand and right hand are fighting each other, but they serve one purpose together: teaching us that the difference between us on color race, religious belief are not the reason to fight each other but to appreciate each other.
What hint was God trying to give us when he made the partner Eve to be a female instead of making them identical twin.
If God make us all identical and give us eternal life and let them into the kingdom of heaven. What kind of life will they live? To die, to stop thinking? How if their mind get divided again?
There is only one solution, we should accept or even appreciate our difference between each other. That's why God made his creation in great variation and this is the reason our life becomes so colorful.
Thanks to God!
The Flower and The Fence
The flower and the fence
Why Israelites are so lucky to be selected by God, and their religion was chosen to be the foundation of the Christianity.
Jesus might have clearly told the reason through his teaching: "It is the sick that need a doctor."
I guess in that sense Israelites aren't special as all are sinners but one. But Israelites are selected special in that they have been kept the complete record of their sins with honest. Washing off their sins are more difficult. God wanted to show his mercy and fogiveness to everyone, even the most sinful ones.
Take the follwing parable:
In the late winter, when the wind is still freezing cold, but the spring has been already on her way. The smart gardener would sow the seed of most beautiful flower under the fence of his front yard.
Although the fence is cold and lifeless, it collects sunshine and helps the seed fight and survive the cold weather and late frost during the ealy spring.
Gradually, the seed germinate and start to grow. Inch by inch it grows. At the beginning, it still need the support of the fence as it is not strong enough. Finally, its beauty overshadow the fence and becomes greatest plant that dominate the fence which used to dominate.
Similarly, it might happen to many believers of our Christian church. Many of us began our journey of Christianity with a motivation not so of christian, sometimes even from selfishness. But the seed of holly spirit was sowed by Jesus under the fence of exactly that selfishness. As time goes, the sunshine and water comes to us as Jesus' Gospel teaching. Finally, the flower of holly spirit with solid faith and great love would finally dominate our minds.
(Nowadays, some churches need people to pass some kind of test or something alike to be baptized. Go and read the gospel again and compare, who give you the right to set that bar?!!!)
During this process, some time we need to remove our fence of selfishness or even evil thinking from our mind if it's harmful to the flower. More often we can just leave it there and let the holly spirit grow over it, but since our holly spirit are taking the control it won't do any harm. The selfishness could not cause damage but would only make our life more colorful.
From a friend of another church in Toronto (Gospel hall in Eglinton), I heard a very good story. Don was an elder member of a church, one day they ran across a lady and her daughter in front of their church. After a brief discussion, he invited them to visit their church. And the lady responded in a surprising way: "I will goto your church only if you could offer me a job."
But they were not surprised, they happened to have some part time work to do in the church, so they actually offered her a job. And the lady and her daughter were latter baptized one year after. (Actually the request might be quite understandable after you knew how tough the life sometimes)
Reminding me about a quote from buddhism, "if you see a buddha, kill him!". Actually this might be something worth deeper thinking. Here the word "kill" might not mean physically killing the buddha, but to fight with him. Actually fighting with the buddha is better than leave the buddha alone. As leaving the buddha alone won't do anything good for you. But trying to kill him (fight with him) will teach yourself some buddhism. With the effort to fight with it as a start point, you will really start to understand the truth, and eventually be saved. To be honest, killing a buddha is quite a evil idea at the first place from any point of view.
Christian is exactly such a buddha, after we saw Christian, before we fully understand it, our instinct tell us to deny it at first place. But the effort to deny it might be the first step of our chrisitian life. As this selfdefense effort builds a fence for Jesus to sow the seed of Holly spirit in our mind.
Many many things just work like that. Some other good things could also come out in a similar way. Love might come from selfishness. Friendship might start with taking advantage of other people. Of course, I am not suggesting to do wrong things knowingly and purposely and expect good thing comes after.
Follow the real heart, don't pretend! If your heart tells to deny Christian, just do it and fight. That might be a good start point. But don't let your mind die and stop working. (Reminds me a quote for Jesus: anyone speak against Jesus Christ would be forgiven, but any one speak against Holly Spirit will not be forgiven.)
Selfishness is like a wild beast in our mind. But if we use love as harness, and let holly spirit to rein it, this wild beast won't cause any damage. Its power could do some work for us. As more often than not, selfishness could generate more driving power of motivation to do work, that just the nature of our mind. The trick is we need to rein it.
Selfishness is like a fence, cold and lifeless. But if sow the seed of holly spirit under it and let it grow in the sunshine of Gospel teaching. The flower of love will blosom and lead us into beautiful spring. If we always appreciate holly spirit, the fence not only won't damage the flower, but help it be more beautiful and strong.
God know this trick very well, that's why he designed the world this way, the world of richness, combined with love and selfishness.
Jewish teaching is the fence, and under the fence, God sowed the seed of Gospel underneath it. After two thousand years, bit by bit, up and down, chrisitianity grew out as a beautiful flower, it blosom beautifully and overshadowed the fence. They have transformed our world of violence into the peaceful spring, that's the kingdom of God.
Going back to the question from beginning, are the Israelites really selected as a only nation to be treated specially. Observe the fact that Taoism and Buddhism all came in at around 2500 years ago, they both were caring similar birth mark of love, compassion, forgiving and considerative of others. The answer might not be that simple.
But there are something special with Christianity, because the Israelites' special loyalty to their old (sinful) religion and loveless laws, it cost much more for God to sow the seed. The strugle of Christianity establishment was by far the most painful. The result is that the fruit from that branch is also the most beautiful and rich in content.
Why Israelites are so lucky to be selected by God, and their religion was chosen to be the foundation of the Christianity.
Jesus might have clearly told the reason through his teaching: "It is the sick that need a doctor."
I guess in that sense Israelites aren't special as all are sinners but one. But Israelites are selected special in that they have been kept the complete record of their sins with honest. Washing off their sins are more difficult. God wanted to show his mercy and fogiveness to everyone, even the most sinful ones.
Take the follwing parable:
In the late winter, when the wind is still freezing cold, but the spring has been already on her way. The smart gardener would sow the seed of most beautiful flower under the fence of his front yard.
Although the fence is cold and lifeless, it collects sunshine and helps the seed fight and survive the cold weather and late frost during the ealy spring.
Gradually, the seed germinate and start to grow. Inch by inch it grows. At the beginning, it still need the support of the fence as it is not strong enough. Finally, its beauty overshadow the fence and becomes greatest plant that dominate the fence which used to dominate.
Similarly, it might happen to many believers of our Christian church. Many of us began our journey of Christianity with a motivation not so of christian, sometimes even from selfishness. But the seed of holly spirit was sowed by Jesus under the fence of exactly that selfishness. As time goes, the sunshine and water comes to us as Jesus' Gospel teaching. Finally, the flower of holly spirit with solid faith and great love would finally dominate our minds.
(Nowadays, some churches need people to pass some kind of test or something alike to be baptized. Go and read the gospel again and compare, who give you the right to set that bar?!!!)
During this process, some time we need to remove our fence of selfishness or even evil thinking from our mind if it's harmful to the flower. More often we can just leave it there and let the holly spirit grow over it, but since our holly spirit are taking the control it won't do any harm. The selfishness could not cause damage but would only make our life more colorful.
From a friend of another church in Toronto (Gospel hall in Eglinton), I heard a very good story. Don was an elder member of a church, one day they ran across a lady and her daughter in front of their church. After a brief discussion, he invited them to visit their church. And the lady responded in a surprising way: "I will goto your church only if you could offer me a job."
But they were not surprised, they happened to have some part time work to do in the church, so they actually offered her a job. And the lady and her daughter were latter baptized one year after. (Actually the request might be quite understandable after you knew how tough the life sometimes)
Reminding me about a quote from buddhism, "if you see a buddha, kill him!". Actually this might be something worth deeper thinking. Here the word "kill" might not mean physically killing the buddha, but to fight with him. Actually fighting with the buddha is better than leave the buddha alone. As leaving the buddha alone won't do anything good for you. But trying to kill him (fight with him) will teach yourself some buddhism. With the effort to fight with it as a start point, you will really start to understand the truth, and eventually be saved. To be honest, killing a buddha is quite a evil idea at the first place from any point of view.
Christian is exactly such a buddha, after we saw Christian, before we fully understand it, our instinct tell us to deny it at first place. But the effort to deny it might be the first step of our chrisitian life. As this selfdefense effort builds a fence for Jesus to sow the seed of Holly spirit in our mind.
Many many things just work like that. Some other good things could also come out in a similar way. Love might come from selfishness. Friendship might start with taking advantage of other people. Of course, I am not suggesting to do wrong things knowingly and purposely and expect good thing comes after.
Follow the real heart, don't pretend! If your heart tells to deny Christian, just do it and fight. That might be a good start point. But don't let your mind die and stop working. (Reminds me a quote for Jesus: anyone speak against Jesus Christ would be forgiven, but any one speak against Holly Spirit will not be forgiven.)
If we take another stand point, selfishness might be the cause of sin or even evil, but if we have love as steering wheel and holy spirit as the driver. Sometimes they can be utilized as a powerful engine and do work for us. The key is we should always keep the holy spirit at the driver seat.
Selfishness is like a wild beast in our mind. But if we use love as harness, and let holly spirit to rein it, this wild beast won't cause any damage. Its power could do some work for us. As more often than not, selfishness could generate more driving power of motivation to do work, that just the nature of our mind. The trick is we need to rein it.
Selfishness is like a fence, cold and lifeless. But if sow the seed of holly spirit under it and let it grow in the sunshine of Gospel teaching. The flower of love will blosom and lead us into beautiful spring. If we always appreciate holly spirit, the fence not only won't damage the flower, but help it be more beautiful and strong.
God know this trick very well, that's why he designed the world this way, the world of richness, combined with love and selfishness.
Jewish teaching is the fence, and under the fence, God sowed the seed of Gospel underneath it. After two thousand years, bit by bit, up and down, chrisitianity grew out as a beautiful flower, it blosom beautifully and overshadowed the fence. They have transformed our world of violence into the peaceful spring, that's the kingdom of God.
Going back to the question from beginning, are the Israelites really selected as a only nation to be treated specially. Observe the fact that Taoism and Buddhism all came in at around 2500 years ago, they both were caring similar birth mark of love, compassion, forgiving and considerative of others. The answer might not be that simple.
But there are something special with Christianity, because the Israelites' special loyalty to their old (sinful) religion and loveless laws, it cost much more for God to sow the seed. The strugle of Christianity establishment was by far the most painful. The result is that the fruit from that branch is also the most beautiful and rich in content.
Preface
Dear friends:
I set up this blog to expose some of recent thinking about some principle question about the purpose of life.
The idea of the topic was inspired by the ever well known book of Charles Darwin: "On the Origin of Species". The motivation of this discussion is to inspire people's thinking and remind us that the evolution theory is not the only explanation about the world. There might be more behind the creation of our world. Whether it come from pure nature or God our creator, or the collaboration of both.
The major piece would be to composing a story to describe the process of formation of our world by following the thread of love. Which, I believe, is one important missing part from the evolution theory, or even the whole modern natural sciece system.
Through this we are not to fight against the modern science system, but to full fill it. Fulfill it with Love. Just as Jesus said: (Matthew 5:17-18)
"Do not think that I came to destroy the Law or the Prophets. I did not come to destroy but to fulfill. For assuredly, I say to you, till heaven and earth pass away, one jot or one tittle will by no means pass from the law till all is fulfilled."
Jesus might actually also referring to the scientific laws.
Sincerely Sean
I set up this blog to expose some of recent thinking about some principle question about the purpose of life.
The idea of the topic was inspired by the ever well known book of Charles Darwin: "On the Origin of Species". The motivation of this discussion is to inspire people's thinking and remind us that the evolution theory is not the only explanation about the world. There might be more behind the creation of our world. Whether it come from pure nature or God our creator, or the collaboration of both.
The major piece would be to composing a story to describe the process of formation of our world by following the thread of love. Which, I believe, is one important missing part from the evolution theory, or even the whole modern natural sciece system.
Through this we are not to fight against the modern science system, but to full fill it. Fulfill it with Love. Just as Jesus said: (Matthew 5:17-18)
"Do not think that I came to destroy the Law or the Prophets. I did not come to destroy but to fulfill. For assuredly, I say to you, till heaven and earth pass away, one jot or one tittle will by no means pass from the law till all is fulfilled."
Jesus might actually also referring to the scientific laws.
Sincerely Sean
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